right now it's more about what i'm not doing than what i'm doing.
reminding myself it's a marathon, not a sprint. nursed an achilles injury the past few days. it feels healed now but i don't want to rush it. tomorrow it's back on regimen. gotta learn the pose running form.
i feel mediocre. i know it's because i miss working out. an object in motion stays in motion. i'm not in motion so it's blah. but it's great because i really feel the effects of my continued meditation, so i feel in complete control of my actions.
i feel like gorging on food, which i did the other day wrt a homemade (somewhat) pizza. instead i'm indulging myself on my normal healthy diet. not gonna cheat for 2 weeks. was doing 90/10, where 10% of the time you can eat anything you want, but that was too easy. i plan on cheating twice this month, and then once in may. i expect some regression but right now that's my goal. im becoming a better cook, so as long as i have my beans/soups/rice i'll be okay. the only meat i'm eating is turkey breast, although it's processed garbage. whatever, the perfect is the enemy of the better. if it keeps me on my diet it's not so bad. when i'm able to afford it i'll eat free-range.
in reality my metabolism is getting too fast, too efficient. it's hard for me to keep up with it wrt budgeting.
80 percent diet, 20 percent working out. the working out part is easier for me. it's the dieting, as i realize i'm becoming addicted to food. i'm working on slowing down when i eat. i love to eat, and i love my healthy diet, but it's like i love it too much, ya know? it's just food. relax.
oi... met up with one of my black belts last night and sparred for a whole hour. all these hood kids were playing basket ball and came over to watch me getting my butt handed back to me. i limped back home but it was way worth it.
there will be no working out today lol... my whole left side is purple
now this sounds like a blast! one day i'll be there
i thought about starting 5x5 a week from now but i've decided against it. i know from experience i'll get too strong, too hungry, and my grocery bill will go up too quickly. i prefer cardio anyway. for resistance, pilates. i'm gonna go hard on pilates / bike riding until i can master this kettlebell i've had laying around. kettlebell's my thing because it's strength, explosion, and endurance. really looking forward to it!
this next month is gonna be a crucial test. i feel i'm ready