The tears stain my face
The blood stains my skin
Your initials carved into my leg...
I am not sure why I did it
It bleeds as I speak
I dream of a glass of sparkly wine
It would be so great just to sip some old strawberry wine
But it would not excuse what I have done to myself
I can't stop crying
I don't think I can take it
I just want to be young and carefree again
I am not good with these days I live in
I am still just a child at heart
Why must this be?
When will I ever get over this?
I miss the days of koolaid,
daddy t-shirts for bedtime,
playing in the backyard with neighbor friends,
rolling around in the grass and dreaming with my bestfriends,
dolls and mama's dresses,
cartoons,
crayola, scissors, and glue all over the place,
when I swore I heard Santa on the roof,
when the Easter Bunny came,
staying up all night trying to come up with ways to catch the tooth fairy
hugs and kisses all of the time,
stories and lullabys,
stealing older sister's perfumes,
trying to keep lil brother away,
and now all I want is to be near them
Now with the days moving faster they are too busy with thier own lives now
So then now I must try and move on...
Someone once told me that I should be strong for those around me that love me
So I have to move on with this
Please believe in me as well forgive me
I will try because I love all of you
The blood stains my skin
Your initials carved into my leg...
I am not sure why I did it
It bleeds as I speak
I dream of a glass of sparkly wine
It would be so great just to sip some old strawberry wine
But it would not excuse what I have done to myself
I can't stop crying
I don't think I can take it
I just want to be young and carefree again
I am not good with these days I live in
I am still just a child at heart
Why must this be?
When will I ever get over this?
I miss the days of koolaid,
daddy t-shirts for bedtime,
playing in the backyard with neighbor friends,
rolling around in the grass and dreaming with my bestfriends,
dolls and mama's dresses,
cartoons,
crayola, scissors, and glue all over the place,
when I swore I heard Santa on the roof,
when the Easter Bunny came,
staying up all night trying to come up with ways to catch the tooth fairy
hugs and kisses all of the time,
stories and lullabys,
stealing older sister's perfumes,
trying to keep lil brother away,
and now all I want is to be near them
Now with the days moving faster they are too busy with thier own lives now
So then now I must try and move on...
Someone once told me that I should be strong for those around me that love me
So I have to move on with this
Please believe in me as well forgive me
I will try because I love all of you
i really felt what you were saying. good write.
