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Tearing down, building up

Pyro

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I shot at the solid stone wall with my 12-guage long barrel shot gun. 40 rounds of bitter, unbridled destruction. Then the wall came crumbling down and the ash and soot flew up into the air, engulfing me.
When it finally passed I was still standing in the same place, with my gun resting on my right shoulder. I blew the air from my lungs out of my nose and the grey dirt spiraled around in many directions. Somehow it was a pattern, someway it wasn't.
I walked over to the heaping pile of filth and stood atop it all. My face did not change from it's cold, brutal exterior. It was hard and angry and bloodlusting. It was the face of one who had recently exacted some kind of lustful vengence.
There, above the wrecked pile I found myself at peace. I was able to listen to the still quiet water trickling in background. The breeze gently moved the small hairs on my face and ears, tickling my physical perception. The dust settled and I could see clearly again.
The breeze cooled off to resemble something like a cold summer's night. You know, when it's been 115 degrees all day, and now it's only 68? That's what it was like, standing there on top of the broken pieces of the wall.
The gun turned into a feather and I stuck it in my hair. I began to hum a quiet verse to God and I was picked up off my feet, and brought away from the mountianious pile. I grew wings and flew higher than I had ever been before.
From the view above I was able to see my body, now sitting cross-legged in the middle of a field with long green grass. There was a stream near by and some rocks placed in a specific pattern. The pattern of the rocks represented my new defenses against the wall from ever forming around me again.
My body sat perfectly still. My eyes were shut and I could hear myself humming still, this time more passionatly. Each fluctuation of tone meant something specific, as I listened from my position up above it all.
When I realized that I was not flying, but that I was being carried along by the hands of my creator I thought to myself, "What better hands to be in, than the One who crafted me?"
I opened my eyes and was sitting at the computer, writing something to bluelight again....
Pyro
 
God is the act of creation. It is nothing more and nothing less.
...to me anyway.
 
ambiguity at it's finest. Noodle, you crack me up.
God is either non-existant, what the Muslims say, what the Hindus say, what the Christians say, or what anyone who wants to make up their own meaning says. Let us not devalue God to our own creation. A creation in our own minds, based on what?
Pyro
 
The feeling of one with the all?
God is a word, an abstraction, a concept.
But how do we define anything without our language?
...again then...
GOD is made manifest in the act of creation,
to me.
I just feel it sometimes. I just can not explain it accurately with words, because they fall short upon further dissection and introspection.
*shrug*
I'm sorry, but I am wired for metaphor.
My English has improved though...yes?
:)
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[ 19 July 2002: Message edited by: Noodle ]
 
I thought that I might never get to read your words again, Pyro my friend, but here you are again, showing us your wisdom and creativity!
It's damn good to see ya around again, bro!
-Jeff
 
I do love you Omar.
Often times you had confused me, and even had seemed to be convoluting the picture. Upon further examination I could always see what it was you were going on about. ;)
"The kiss was the only way I could, at the time, express my gratitude toward you for seeming to not give a damn about what the world was saying"
Yet, the only true way I have found to rebel against this world is to reject it's pseudo-morality and helpless wisdom.
:)
Tim
 
Oh, and noodle:
"How can we define God without the use of our language?"
That's a very wonderful question. You see, if we are made in the likeness of God, we can then see a reflection of God by looking at our godly characteristics. The problem for most is differentiation between godly and non-godly. The Bible is the book to look in if you want to see how you measure up to that version of the story.
You see, I honestly thought that each religion was worshiping the same God. It wasn't until I actually started studying the different religions extensivly, that I found they are definatly NOT praying to the same idea. Each religious system is exclusive in that respect.
The reason I choose this path, is because of Jesus Christ. Otherwise I would let the Jews have their condeming version of God. So if Jesus Christ actually walked the earth, and said the things he is remembered as saying, then he is the physical manifestation of God in the flesh. Sinless, and come to forgive mankind of their sin and draw them close to God. So it is God who reached down to us, saying that we need only believe in Jesus Christ and we are saved and the equivilant of adopted children to God himself. That's the love part. While we were still dead in our sins, he gave his life to save us... while we were still rebelling against him, he reached down to draw us near.
So there is no need to define God. What IS God? How can I explain him? How can I put words to it. Most of us seem to be stuck for words. It's enough to just understand what he has made avaliable to those who simply believe.
The only two commandments Jesus said we have to follow:
Love God with all your heart, mind, and body
Love your neighbor as yourself.
*shrugs* pretty simple.
Tim
Ps: and your english is getting much better!!! :)
[ 21 July 2002: Message edited by: Pyro ]
 
Very surreal being in this stage-like backdrop ironically set in the middle of hollywood in an incredible moment where it seemed like we were the two archetypal actor/jesters, understanding for a moment the punchline of the cosmic joke we had just grasped, and having it fade just as quickly.
Love you too, Tim. Hope all is well. I'm south OC, smack dab in the belly of the beast. :)
 
The only two commandments Jesus said we have to follow:
Love God with all your heart, mind, and body
Love your neighbor as yourself.
*shrugs* pretty simple.

Rhetorical question:
Why do I feel myself being drawn into this love?
What a truly wonderful manifesto.
*hugs*
 
Though, I must clarify that we are not saved by obeying those two commandments. Many people end up following those commandments. While their ideas of "what is god?" are rather mixed up. It's actually considered idolotry when we create and define what God is to us. God has sent us all the definition we need through the Bible (of himself).
In fact, it is written that the only commandment that will be held against us is not believing in Christ as the ONLY way to be acceptable to God.
We are saved by grace THROUGH faith. By the infinite grace of God (who would be so loving as to reach out to us and WANT to draw us near), and by our own comission saying, "I believe in Christ, come be my center and Lord of my life"
Or saying something close along those lines. Do not let the cults decieve you. We are saved ONLY by grace through faith, not by the good works we do here on earth, and not because we are super nice people.
*blinks* I think I'm going to write a new topic later....
Pyro
PS: Hey Angelight!!!
 
hi
so, Picasso said "Every act of creation is, at it's core, and act of destruction." Your union with your creator was brought about by an act of destruction. what was this wall you had built around yourself, was it to seperate you from your creator or was that an unfortunate side effect. when I read the poem, I got one thing, and then after reading the strains of debate that followed, I am confused. I respect your adherence to your Lord and Savior, I just want to find out if I was mistaken about the poem.
 
sorry, that post didn't really make any sense. I too find satisfaction through religious practices and I think I came across a little gruff. my apologies again.
 
Well, the union was a reunion - just to clarify my circumstance.
The wall was the one society had built up for me. Once I was old enough to do whatever it is I choose, then I jumped into the finer things about society. Mainly the hedonistic imperative and chemicals! Whoo fun! Or so it seemed to start out as. Parties and girls and boys who weren't all aggressive and angry! Yipee...
The problem was my objectivity and my refusal to continue on with something (if I didn't have to) once I found that thing to be harmful. The entire lifestyle turned out to be harmful, in the end. I must admit, I held onto the dank smoke under the idea that it was the only thing keeping me level headed.
Throw it all out. When I tore down the wall with my observations and learnings and through my circumstance, learning from the people around myself, I ended up standing on top of the burning pile of rubble, which is societies game. Which I descimated with the perverbial shot gun that is my mouth and mind.
Atop of the pile of broken pieces I was still searching. Still listening to the world around me, refusing to believe that this was IT. I refused to acknowledge (as many do) that this is all there is avaliable to us in this reality. Standing there, and listening I heard that calm breeze, I felt it brush against me softly, quietly.
I made the decision to believe, to go with that (Jesus/God) just like I made the decision to go with the Hedonistic religious belief system (chemicals!).
Run and hide while you still can, before the wall colapses around you. Blow your 12-guage! Don't go out without a fight! Keep your mind shooting straight, even when the ecstasy and LSD makes you feel completely alone or completely at one with everyone/thing around you. You are not at one with them, it is deception at it's highest and most entertaining! And you are truely not alone.
Take shelter...
Tim
[ 23 July 2002: Message edited by: Pyro ]
 
:D
Tell me you've read "Murder Mysteries" by Neil Gaiman? A beautiful story, and for some reason it came to mind as I was reading this. Random associations, what can I say.
Wonderfully written! Thank you. :)
 
Pyro thanks for giving truely of yourself.
Not sure how to verbalise this but i recently have felt adrift, almost like i missed the last step in the instructions.
Nothings wrong but again nothings right.
Not sure where to head from here but at the moment the dank smoke seems soothing....
I'm not sure if religion is for me (always have been an atheist) but i feel the conviction of your belief and i wonder if i could find that too... don't know, the smoke is easy and it seems forever. But even I know it has to fade.
 
interesting.
I'd be curious to have this conversation with you in real time face to face visceral intesity with minds ablaze and both throwing sparks against the walls. I agree with you on many points. although my religious practicices differ in rather inconsequential ways, we do share similiar ground. I am glad to hear you have stopped smoking weed, what foul, obstructive clouds it creates. The only thing I would like to say now is, I've found life to be a game. not the kind of game with sides and winners and losers, but that childhood game with no rules and loose guidlines, (a bunch of children running in the grass) and the joy and freedom that goes with it. If it is all just a game, then when you get beaten and bruised, it's all over and starts anew when the sunrises on your face. Don't worry so much about which way is right, just keep moving forward.
eRIC
 
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