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6 weeks is a freakn milestone!
Doin good man stay positive :)

unfortunately I have decided to cancel my bluelight account today.
When I get home from work eK will be no more than a fragment of your imagination.
The good news is I'll return as a n00b.. Sigh.
Im just experiencing a lot of life problems right now and cannot express myself the way I would like to due to the fact that too many personal aqquantinces now use bluelight and are familiar with my username..
There's stuff I need to express but also stuff that needs to remain hidden from my personal contacts.
I hate that ive gotta start all over again.
But when I Decide to return I will definitely be back in the dark side.
This section of bluelight is my favorite and probably the most informed.
I can't thank you people enough for guiding me in the darkest of days over the years.

Keep it real guys <3
-Dan.
[eK]
 
Hey dan we're gonna miss you. I've really enjoyed all of the posts I've seen from you, and I'm sad to see you go but happy to see your reasons. And I'm very happy for your 6 week milestone, that impresses me a great deal. I will be waiting for your return and you are always welcome back. I hope you get to see this before you cancel your account. Best of the luck in your endeavors. If you ever want to talk just throw me a PM and I can give you my MSN :)
 
eK so sorry to hear you're having a problem with bluelight and the real world clashing together. At least i'll get to meet a new friend soon :) <3
 
Will be sorry to see ya go [eK]... but is great that ul be back even if its over again;)
Sup TDS? Im having a slow day, much to do but havin trouble findin the boost i need, The weather is horrible and isnt getting much better i really should invest in an umberella. Will be lucky to get the washing hung today ive been thru a season of "The Mighty Boosh" killer Rob Zombie cartoon & some Rambo movies. Really great I also had a good meal last night and have managed late breakfast and lunch today (even if they lil unz)!! I'm havin a win there.
 
Lol. Not terminating my account now.
I was about to, but then had a falling out with the people I was trying so hard to prevent from reading my posts.
Now, I don't give a f**k if they read my posts because I said everything I would say on here to them last night, and if they read my posts mayb they will wake up and stop victimizing family.
I'm eager to see who my real friends are now.
I would elaborate but this this isn't the place for that.
:-/ :-)
 
i feel extremely concerned about my drug using future because right now i am sort of drunk and i want more!! i must have more, that's all on my mind right now, i want more drugs, and i feel i will stop at nothing to get some.

i recently OD'd on a mix of pharmaceuticals and flatlined, but i was brought back to life. went through 60 days of treatment and the firs th ting i did when i gothome was pop roxi, xanax, and valium. right now i can barely afford a handle of vodka and i am drinking like a fish. it feels sooo fucking good. i need help, oh please let me find that light!

i am insane, expecting different results from doing the same things over and over again. am i doomed to a life of intoxication and loneliness? is this what i want my life to be?

i am an addict, i crave drugs, i need drugs, i need to keep living, but using drugs contradicts all of this

please help me, oh god, please help me
 
^ please hang on laCster! I know how desperate you must feel just getting home and going straight back to using. Sounds like you aren't fully convinced that things can change. They can and do. Addiction is a response to overwhelming pain for many people. Working on the sources and reactions to your deep pain is what will spring you from the trap. Please PM me or anyone right now if you need to. <3
 
idk i just got into a huge fight with my mom about using , she's basically saying that if i go back to using i am no longer being supported. i pay for some of my rent but my parents pay for the other half and for almost all of my schooling. i am so close to just saying screw it. this fuckng sucks, i dont know what to do. no where to go, nothing to do....
 
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You know when you have those good moments that you wouldn't change for the world?

When this happens, remind yourself that you would not be able to experience those moments, without the aid of every single thing you have ever said and done.
 
Ugh I hate the bouts of insecurities and introvertedness I get. I don't know what triggers days where I feel completely unaccepted by the human race and others that I feel like I belong. The WORST.

Luckily today shaped up and I'm feeling a big more normal :). So what's up with everyone today?
 
I feel the same way man. Actually felt that exact way last night. When I feel like that I've tried practicing not caric and trying to accept my own insecurities simply because I feel like nobody else does. I'm very anti society but that feeling can get to ANYBODY. So just try to play off with what you have.

Sorry I've been absent everyone I was up in the mountains this weekend with some friends. It was nice to be able to pull myself away from drugs, computer, sitting around doing etc and spend some time in nature with people I don't usually interact with. Today I think I'm going give myself sometime to unwind and then go to the mall :)
 
doing alot better today, i still have urges but they seem more manageable. i reaaaallly want to smoke some weed, might just have to settle with some spice soon.
 
^ i know the feeling laCaster....
well hi folks, Are you doing fine? I am not doing fine, as you will probably tell by the string of messy posts come this afternoon... I really wanna be fine, but im not, therefore i know what i should be doing, but im probably gonna do the oppisite... FFS is it me that drives all women batshit insane or the other way around?!:?
cherio for now Lovley people. Unfortunatly for you all i will retun:|
 
hmm I have my class tomorrow and I'm really trying to see if I can grab the attention of the girl who I sit next to every class. I haven't talked to her that much, besides a few times dealing with the class work, so, so far I haven't really gotten any where. Shes super cute, and god damn, she was looking sexy last night. I so wanted to grab me a piece of that :P. I gotta try and start up a more personal conversation with her tomorrow, you know, get to know her a bit. Honestly I don't even remember her first name, only her last... not a good start, but we'll see. I'm not the best with trying to grab the attention of a female so not sure how it will go. Not honestly sure how to get myself into a good conversazione with her
 
Hello darksiders!

today was spent recovering from the events of last night, I believe saying we overindulged would be the correct term.

Anyhow, I carry a bag full of the various meds I must take throughout the day and am extremely pissed to discover that the caps to several medications had fallen off resulting in hundreds of pills mixing together at the bottom of the bag.

As I'm tediously picking up each pill, identifying it, and putting it back in the correct bottle, I noticed a hole in the bottom corner of my med bag. It was small, but large enough for the majority of the norcos to fall out. The Lyrica and Soma were too big to fall through the hole (and of COURSE it had to be the norcos, which is much more important than the spilled lyrica/soma. GRRRR.. what a day.
 
The social thread was starting to slip, so im posting for a wee bump... Today has been 3/10 for SMFG... better than a zero, I have much to do and little time to do it... Its nearly 10pm here atm alot of you will be waking up or in the middle of ur day... So whats up?

Lol tricomb, id agree there with a big bag of different pills as slightly overindulgeing:\
 
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