Splat I love your excessively long posts. I usually brush over long posts but I particularly enjoy yours. I learned a lot about you and the type of person you are by reading them.
I am so glad you seem to have gotten a newfound spark of ambition for a whole slew of things in your life. Especially with the music interest and writing. You are an exceptional writer, use that talent any way you can. Whether it be keeping notes in your moleskin or just creative writing bits or whatever.
What instrument(s) do you have experience with? I have always envied people with musical talent. I really wish I was set off at a young age with a little musical seed in me. It seems like such an awesome outlet.
Also, that's so funny you mention moleskin in particular, you seem to have a special love for the brand. I too love moleskin. I checked out the notebook. Is that one with a genuine cover or a cardboard cover? Either way they're great!
And that is awesome about the RLS project! I bet you will feel so accomplished once you finish it. Kind of like it's a work of art, yanno?
But congrats on finding all of this positive energy you're emanating in your posts!
Also, good morning (?) D2p! How's the weather looking there?
Today I took a bit of amphetamine (some days I haven't, but I had a full day today), so that does help increase the length of the posts. It also causes me to make a lot more mistakes unfortunately. However, I really don't care at this point, this is the last month I'm going to get the script filled. I had it again for a year after 5 years of not taking them, but now I've decided to make the final decisions to stay off them. I took a 2 month break before this refill, and honestly I prefer not having amphetamines in my system quite so often.
The methadone I've found (or it could be just getting a better nights sleep) also helps me write long posts. Not sure what it really is about methadone helping my ADHD, but I'll take it. I don't mind a nice long post, it can be worth 5 or 10 small posts at times. Some people will just write a 3 sentence response to a question that people have written papers on, or really should be said in a few paragraphs to give the best advice.
I do agree with you on avoiding most long posts. I honestly do that majority of the time. I have a hard time with browsing BL some days, or periods through out the day. I find myself not able to really read anything with more than a one or two sentence answer, which essentially means I would spend at least an hour reading maybe 2 paragraphs total. I really don't learn much from days like those. It just ends up wasting my time, but I'm working on trying to change that. I let my counselor know that working on my ADHD is my main priority at this point for the session.
I've honestly never been considered a great writer by any means. I mean, maybe if we are talking about a chemistry lab report I'll end up dominating that, but other styles of writing I struggle with. It will take me two to three times the amount of time it would take most other individuals. The last post is a good example. It took me over an hour I believe.
The only time any professor or teacher has enjoyed my written work, is when they purely look at my content and the artistic/abstract nature of the stories structure. I know jack shit about proper grammar, sentence structure, or any thing that a 10th grade should know, so most of my english teachers in HS hated me. That teacher I spoke of above was really the only exception. We had some writing assignment do, and I just recently finished reading the Chuck Palahniuk book, "rant", so I decided to let Chuck inspire me. My paper was written in that weird story telling style that he uses in Rant, which honestly would be easier to look up or skim through the book, than for me to describe. I of course had great concepts thrown in there, and used a style of writing that could have landed me an F, if the teacher didn't appreciate the abstractness of the writing. He gave me an A while the majority of the class got Cs and Bs. Thats my only fond memory from a english class haha.
I'm a percussionist by trade, but have been self taught in playing keyboards/synths. I also self taught myself music production/composition. I was in the band program from 6th grade till 10th grade, but after that I had no formal training. The rest of my "training" is just through messing around, and occasionally playing with two of my best friends who are absolutely amazing musicians that I've been friend with since I started playing (if I didn't make those mistakes I'd be right around their level of musicianship). I have a Alesis micron, a Saffire 14 pro audio interface, a padkontrol, and I used ableton live for my DAW. A decent little set up. Kinda need a new computer to speed things up, but that will be a while.
Even though I've not progressed in music in the way that I would have liked, I've maintained it as something I am carrying with me for the rest of my life. I'll always try and become a better musician, and of course my HUGE music collection will still continue to grow as well. I have like over 200 gigs of music. :D sooo much to choose from.
The note book is not the nice cover, just a cardboard one. Better than those cheap small spiral note book ones that fall apart. I suspect this one will last a bit longer. I might even fill it up before it ends up dying from to much pocket time.
dawww.
i made an even cooler one when i was in hospital a couple of weeks ago but on the day i discharged myself i was so destressed and ready for having another psychotic episode i forgotto collect all of the artwork i had dond during my 7 day stay,i did so much art and writing as i need a special mattress which theywouldnt provide therefore i didnt sleep for a week
