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IS there anywhere you know that you can walk where not a lot of people go? That's what I try to do when I need a walk and I'm like that. There are a few places behind my house.
 
Cloudy could you not put a hoody on with your hood up to hide your face? I think the fresh air will help you a lot
 
I'm in texas so it's waaaay to hot out right now for a hoodie.

I'm also in the middle of a middle class neighborhood and right now, its teaming with people going on walks, or kids playing in the fields (soccer practice type stuff). Not the best place honestly. My old neighborhood was alot better in NC where I could be alone.
 
Hey Cloudy, I am so sorry to hear about your grandmother. Could you get some paper and pencil out and write? That helps me more than anything. You could write to her or about her or about your feelings about her. It is always good to let feelings of sadness come when you have them. You could wear sunglasses for the crying on your walk. Again, I am really sorry.<3
 
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I'm trying not to dive into the drugs I have right now. I probably should go for a walk, but I hate being out in public when I know I'm going to have tears run down my face the whole time.

fuck I need a cig
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It doesn't bother me when I'm walking around in public, crying my eyes out.

Much <3 Cloudy. You can always PM me.

I can only imagine what you're going through. The one grandmother I have alive today, is the only person in my family who has shown me unconditional love.
 
I have people PMing me pictures of their cocks now, teeheehee.
I think I am a sex addict, when I have drugs it turns me into a sex addict, i dont know if this is bad, im not really complaining lol.
 
Thanks everyone, I really appreciate the support.


Man I have work at five (central time), and with this going on I know getting out of the house is a good thing, however I know I'm gonna be thinking about it no matter what. Probably gonna turn off my phone, so I can get through the shift and if she passes I can deal with it after I get out of work.
 
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I've realized that I can't do things to get something off of my mind if it's bothering me (not even drugs work for me with that). I just do my best to take care of myself and help others, and make sure I enjoy the environment that I'm in. That's always been a huge factor for my moods.
 
I've been calling up friends, and have had some nice long conversation with them. I feel really greatful that I have such wonderful friends that are happy to support me. They helped me realize how wonderful of a person I am, and how much potential I have when I was really depressed. Now they are helping process everything that happening and just trying to be there for me.

I went out with my dad this morning to the gym and I guess have been bonding a little bit through this. He doesn't really express his emotions out like I do (my family isn't very lovey dovey. Never has been), but we've talked about whats happening. This is a huge step forward in our relationship. I mean I got into a fist fight with my dad like a month ago, but now things have taken a 360. There still is a lot more that needs to be done for us to have a good relationship with each other, but that will happen in time.

Interestingly he mention moving to NC. Obviously it probably wouldn't be ideal since we moved to TX from NC 6 years ago, but there could be potential opportinuties there for him. If he ends up getting a job back in the RTP area, it will actually help me out a lot as moving back to NC on my own is going to be a lot more complicated and difficult. So who knows. Just an interesting comment he mention to me.
 
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I am back home after a long visit with family this past week. I feel so disorganized and uncomfortable. I can't function without a schedule for very long so this is killing me. On a better note though I've decided that now that I'm back I'm going to be eating healthier, walking (maybe in the future actual exercise), I'm going to be making an appointment with a psychiatrist to address my depression and fluctuating moods, which I've been putting off for quite a while now because I didn't want to have to depend on medication. Ugh :|.
 
^i think you'll be amazed at what a healthy diet and exercise can do for you. Would psychotherapy alone be an option rather than meds? I know how hard it can be to seek out the help you need when you need it and wish you all the best. If you feel like talking feel free to PM me whenever. I <3 you to pieces. :)
 
Hi all. wow big happenings in here. Cloudy hope that you getting thru this as best you can, such a terrible thing. I aint been talkin much to anyone so i thought here would be a good start. Gotta get out of the house myself today its been pretty damn pathethic the attempts to pull up compared to last month when i was goin good, exersising every day, replacing the meals i wasnt eating with shakes and going runnung. Im lucky to make it to the bushland as of late apart from that i been going to the shops when i absolutly have to, Kid's got some girlfriends around the place close by so @ least shes been able to get out a bit more, Sent her to the movies yesterday she was stoked as...They grow up 2 quick but Im still getting used to the idea that yea its ok for her to be out with friends around here, Ive always been pretty protective but as long as she got her phone on her im ok with her little wanderings. Just need that spirit back for myself.
Much <3 to everyone hey.
 
^ thnx Libby<3<3
i realy needed an e-hug today now i got one il hold onto it ;)
Had to lol @ ur above post a lil... u naughty girl :D. But the Bluelight cock folder... fuck.... that would be a diverse one!!
wasnt there a nudie thread on here somewheres @ one stage? maybe lounge stuff or ADD cant remember.
 
What to do with myself now...
Not going to work tonight actually after all, too messy, fuck.
Oh well, Tuesday I guess...
What you guys doin today?
 
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