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wow fucing try to help a buddy out with a ride and black ice owns me :(
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Again I am not speaking to my father. I am not going to get into why but I am furious with him. No one speaks to me the way he just did. I hadn't cried in awhile before just now. He is acting like a child having a tantrum. I have calmed down so much over the past few months. I didn't scream back because I was just too paralyzed.

Yesterday was my clove cigarette quit date. I have had 1 in the past 48 hours (day before yesterday). My skin is crawling, I am sweating like mad, and I am *this close* to breaking.

FML today. :(
 
^Aw hun am sorry this happened to ya :( Sounds like your the one taking the High-ground, so kudo's to you! <3
 
goin for CT scan , 11th concussion is on base - can't sleep tonight early appointment. I'm worried , I quit fighting because of this :( , cmon life wtf.
 
^hang in there Mari... it does get easier. I haven't smoked in a coupla weeks (not certain of the exact amount of time) and it fucking SUCKS at first. Each day without is essentially a new day of commitment. Basically, once we get started on the 'nicotine free' path we gotta keep going otherwise we'll just have to repeat the pain/aggravation/edginess all over again and all that previous work goes down the tubes

You can do this. I am certain of that. Shit... i've seen your strength regarding other things. You can do this!!!
 
@AOW: Try not to over panic just yet, just wait, go throught the motions and see what they say first...hoping this will go okay for ya?! Let us know <3:)
 
Thanks for the note, OD - I certainly will. I've got affirmations taped up pretty much everywhere.

My father has already proven himself over and over again to have nearly the worst temper I have ever encountered. Yes, these days I certainly do take the high ground. Problem is that he is my biggest client. I have two interviews next week, however, and hopefully I can tell him to find someone else.

I hope we all have a drama free 2011 and that I am successfully able to continue being a nonsmoker. The pins and needles have started. This is worse than kicking tramadol was (which I have been clean from ~6 months or so)! Doing it without the patch or gum or any meds. I promise not to be one of those self-righteous ex-smokers and perhaps in time I'll be able to enjoy one out occasionally.

TAOW, holy fucking crap dude, call if you need anything, alright?
 
It is so cold here!
Getting into the teens at night!
Just no snow :(
If we have to suffer the cold, we might as well get the snow!!!

Tomorrow is my brothers bday.......I am so happy that I get to spend it with him.
It'll only be one more full dya after that before he leaves :(
 
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