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TDS Social Thread v. RIP tobala & junctionalfunkie, we love you both

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n3ophy7e said:
^^ Aww man that really sucks :( Is there anything in particular that's getting you down? Or you just feel depressed?
I really hope you feel better soon PA <3
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Alot of things have been getting me down. Mainly it's the way that my life is going at the moment. I feel trapped for lack of a better word. I live in a place that i hate, i have no real friends here at all, im dirt poor and i have nothing to look foreward to like i did last year. That and ive been in alot of pain as of late and i fear it's only going to get worse as it gets colder. My moods have beeen pretty shitty as of late too pretty much going from major depression to mixed state mania.

ocean said:
^We buy big jugs and fill them with drinking water. We have water and I could boil some if need be but our tap water is full of minerals- so much so that it turns my tub and all orange! Its gross. I mean, really it is just minerals and nothing GROSS but it just isn't pretty and not fun to clean.....and not something I drink without boiling first.

PA- I really hope you feel better. I know things will get better for all of us soon...........It must be an online sickness, we're all passing around the depression :) I would usually blame the Holidays but this year I get to spend it with my brother and parents...........so I am hoping for a nice one..........
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Yeah things will get better for us. Nothing ever stays the same good or bad. You have good times, you have bad times and you have awful times. Ive just been having way too many awful times as of late. I really hope things get better for you too Ocean christ knows you deserve some happiness thats for sure. <3

We have the same problem with water as you do. Our water comes from a well we have and since it's kinda up in the woods when it raiins alot as it tends to do here more often then not the water turns a brownish color because of all the black dirt running into it. It stains the bathtub when it gets really bad and it stains the kettle. I never drink the water unless we are our of bottled water. I only drink it when it's boiled like when i make tea.

Same here P.A.! You aren't alone.
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Thanks CH. It actually helps alot to know that im not alone in feeling bummed out. I hope you feel better soon too man.
 
Damn I hope you guys can break out of the blues. I hate those periods.

ocean - i dunno what i'd do, I have two gallon jugs a day. LOL - you can't catch me w/out my jug.
 
theartofwar said:
you can't catch me w/out my jug.
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Yeah I'm the same with my water bottle :)
I drink about 3-4 litres a day, which is about 1 gallon.
Ummm taow how do you even fit in 2 gallons of water a day?? I don't even have TIME to drink that much, let alone the stomach space!!
 
I get some pretty funny comments when I'm out with my jug n a few meals lol. esp if im spinnin for a party or something thats the best.

I gotta keep 2 gallons down for my body so i guess i jus got used to it lol.
 
Hey guys,

Guess who just finished training and is going to be on her own every night at the Domestic and Sexual Assault Women's Shelter and taking crisis calls for Crisis Intervention Services!!

This girl!! YAY A BIG girl job!
 
Pillthrill said:
Hey guys,

Guess who just finished training and is going to be on her own every night at the Domestic and Sexual Assault Women's Shelter and taking crisis calls for Crisis Intervention Services!!

This girl!! YAY A BIG girl job!
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That is beyond AWESOME, PT!!!!!!!!!!!

Man, you are going to be EXCELLENT at that job!
 
paranoid android said:
Alot of things have been getting me down. Mainly it's the way that my life is going at the moment. I feel trapped for lack of a better word. I live in a place that i hate, i have no real friends here at all, im dirt poor and i have nothing to look foreward to like i did last year. That and ive been in alot of pain as of late and i fear it's only going to get worse as it gets colder. My moods have beeen pretty shitty as of late too pretty much going from major depression to mixed state mania.



Yeah things will get better for us. Nothing ever stays the same good or bad. You have good times, you have bad times and you have awful times. Ive just been having way too many awful times as of late. I really hope things get better for you too Ocean christ knows you deserve some happiness thats for sure. <3

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Am so sorry you guys are having a hard time of it:( I was like this a while back and it's horrible, support seems to be the strongest light at the end of that tunnel sometimes; from my point of view anyway. Your right though, things never stay constantly flat IMO. 'Hugs' can sound ridiculous when your low but multiple hugz for you none the less. Be extra kind to yourselves, this will see you through to better times! <3 <3


Congrats PT! :)
 
PT- That is awesome!! Congrats!

While PT is growing up, I am growing down :)
hahaha I am going back to my teenage self and dying my hair a crazy color today :) hahaha
Should be fun. Now I need to stop procrastinating and go clean house before company comes!
 
Does anyone want to talk on MSN?

I've always been able to keep such a positive attitude even in the hardest times.. but now..
 
season finale of dexter tonight.. that's one good thing out of the 3 bads - I still don't understand that shit but sure enough , alzheimers , cancer(death) , and now my liver values - this week has been very challenging.
 
Hey guys,

I don't normally post here. But most of you know who I am. Lately I've been having feelings of being alone. I've been so use to have someone by me. A companion through life. Throughout high school and college and afterwards, I've always had someone. Now in the first time in a long time. I'm alone. I don't really have many friends.

I'd like to approach people and make friends but I honestly dont know how. Like now, I'm here in Cancun and there is some pretty girls here. But I'm too shy to walk up and talk to them. I feel weird. I dont know what to say. Or how to start a conversation. I've been lucky enough over the years for the ability to attract people. But that was when I was using drugs. I don't use drugs that much anymore. Except for the occasional pot smoking. I just don't want to be alone anymore :(


Sorry if this is something that would warrant its own thread.. I figured TDS Social would be a good start since so many awesome folks visit this thread
 
^^ Hey Swerlz <3
Sorry to hear you're feeling this way man. This year I've felt pretty alone at times as well because my partner has been working away from home all year, for 4 weeks at a time. So for the first time in my life I've been on my own for extended periods of time and yeah at times I've felt really lonely :(

What do you want though man, do you want a lady companion? Or do you want friends? Or both? Maybe try and make some male friends to start with, if you think that's going to be easier. And then try to befriend some girls. Whatever you are comfortable with. Sometimes when you're out of practice of making friends and socialising it can be really hard, but it gets easier the more you try <3

Jesusgreen said:
Does anyone want to talk on MSN?

I've always been able to keep such a positive attitude even in the hardest times.. but now..
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Hey man I would but I'm at work. Feel free to PM me if you need to talk to someone though okay?
 
Thanks for the response n3o <3

Throughout high school and college I've had female companions. They've should me love and compassion that none of my male friends have done. Back then it was easy, cause I was the guy on campus who had the rarest/best drugs. So making friends was easy. Even if it wasn't about the drugs, it was wit and ability to pull off things no one has ever done.

I just want to feel loved again. Have someone give me a hug and tell me they love me. That's become a rarer event everyday. I feel that it's slowly becoming a distant memory. You guys know about my past relationship with a certain someone. She was with me since high school and college, and then we hooked up and became a couple. I was the happiest I've been in a long time. I had it set in my mind/heart that this was it. I'm set. But the universe didn't have that plan for me. So now I'm in this situation. And now this feeling of being alone is getting to me. Sitting there in my room at night, quiet.

I dont know anymore :(
 
Thanks guys. I knew you would all be so supportive. I have my concerns of course with dealing with life and death situations but everyone else seems to have faith in me.
Plus Tony can drive now and will be able to get a job...when he gets around to it...so things are really looking up.
Oh and Ocean, who cares about hair color. Our company is based on feminism, so I will be shucking off some of the old me, stepping outside the box and dying part of my hair as red as I can get it. I'm hoping fire engine red but I just did it black so I don't think it will take. Perhaps I'll have to save up to get it done pro. Anyone have any suggestions?
Sending warm and positive thoughts to you all from cold and snow covered Iowa. :)
 
Swerlz said:
Thanks for the response n3o <3

Throughout high school and college I've had female companions. They've should me love and compassion that none of my male friends have done. Back then it was easy, cause I was the guy on campus who had the rarest/best drugs. So making friends was easy. Even if it wasn't about the drugs, it was wit and ability to pull off things no one has ever done.

I just want to feel loved again. Have someone give me a hug and tell me they love me. That's become a rarer event everyday. I feel that it's slowly becoming a distant memory. You guys know about my past relationship with a certain someone. She was with me since high school and college, and then we hooked up and became a couple. I was the happiest I've been in a long time. I had it set in my mind/heart that this was it. I'm set. But the universe didn't have that plan for me. So now I'm in this situation. And now this feeling of being alone is getting to me. Sitting there in my room at night, quiet.

I dont know anymore :(
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Well if you need anyone to talk to, you can message me any time. I care =)
 
When you've got three high-up dealers telling you to pay up today, you know its time to get the hell out of the game.

*sigh
 
Pillthrill said:
Thanks guys. I knew you would all be so supportive. I have my concerns of course with dealing with life and death situations but everyone else seems to have faith in me.
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Of course! You're a really kind and caring person, and have always been a good friend to talk to. :)

C_Tripper said:
When you've got three high-up dealers telling you to pay up today, you know its time to get the hell out of the game.

*sigh
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Yeah, maybe taking a break would be a good idea eh?

Is there any credit you have access to? Anyone who can help you out? Any possessions of any worth?
 
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