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Hola!
ive been wondering about you actually, and there you are!
sucks you cant attach a song.
^I hate that you are going through this, man. Find me a genie in a bottle and you would be taken care of right quick.
thanks man, i know you mean it.
but, there is a lot to learn in this, & and a lot of intense real living involved...! iy.
its a real every day terror and more then i could of, or can imagine... its here to stay, profoundly rare and strangely/wildly/unpredictably painful in every aspect, but it is mine and now me.
i almost feel selfish saying that it is my destiny and i can make something of it, because of how many and how much it affects people who decide to invest emotion in, and care about me.
very frustrating.
especially when my lithium keeps me laying in bed, squinting trying to sleep, lol its pretty silly feeling, laying trying to keep my eyes closed heheh. feels like ive had a permagrin(haven't said that in a while!) for three days.
fuck, take more or not, i have to,,, again so frustrating...
but lots to creatively release, i love the thought of an artistic, musical, ambience~manipulating hospice care volunteer group for children, maybe in fifteen twenty years, hopefully.