dolphy7835
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- Jun 25, 2013
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Hello everyone. I've had plenty of experience with benzos over the years, but they were just occasional and not my DOC. Have been on benzos daily for a little over 3 months, and already have experienced wd's a month ago when i went 4 days without. The physical symptoms were mild-like flu symptoms, but the term mild doesn't mean it didn't suck. The killer was the "head creeps".
Awful!......
So now i'm gonna be moving no later than 2 to 3 weeks to start working again. I have to be clean. Detox and inpatient treatment is not an option for me. The only tools i have to use, are. Methadones that are coming in the mail today. My plan is simple(at least on paper that is) : Put 1-2 days in between taking my remaining xanax( 15 1 mg footballs) by occupying my mind and numbing my body from having to feel the withdrawals physically. I will also be satisfying my "need" to get high mentally, as i have a next to nothing opiate tolerance. Don't have money to see doctor\psychiatrist, so that's not an option. I've been around the block a few times with addiction struggles, so the methadone plan is my way of not bullshitting myself into believing that i can put 1 or 2 days in between benzo use while stone cold sober. Opiates have been an addiction in the past. But i feel safe with them at the present time because i don't any dealers in this area to. Keep going back to. Money isn't all there in this issue either. Also, after 1days minimum, 2 days mazimum without benzos, i am only going to take 1mg xanax for that day, then repeat process all over again. Any doctor\therapist\experienced would read this and say, "who is he kidding"
I feel so helpless in this, but it's the best i feel like i can do right now on such short notice. Lastly, it's been about 36 hours since my last xanax, so i've already begun it. It can be done. It must be done for me. Any advice or feedback would be most appreciated. Thanks.
Awful!......
So now i'm gonna be moving no later than 2 to 3 weeks to start working again. I have to be clean. Detox and inpatient treatment is not an option for me. The only tools i have to use, are. Methadones that are coming in the mail today. My plan is simple(at least on paper that is) : Put 1-2 days in between taking my remaining xanax( 15 1 mg footballs) by occupying my mind and numbing my body from having to feel the withdrawals physically. I will also be satisfying my "need" to get high mentally, as i have a next to nothing opiate tolerance. Don't have money to see doctor\psychiatrist, so that's not an option. I've been around the block a few times with addiction struggles, so the methadone plan is my way of not bullshitting myself into believing that i can put 1 or 2 days in between benzo use while stone cold sober. Opiates have been an addiction in the past. But i feel safe with them at the present time because i don't any dealers in this area to. Keep going back to. Money isn't all there in this issue either. Also, after 1days minimum, 2 days mazimum without benzos, i am only going to take 1mg xanax for that day, then repeat process all over again. Any doctor\therapist\experienced would read this and say, "who is he kidding"
I feel so helpless in this, but it's the best i feel like i can do right now on such short notice. Lastly, it's been about 36 hours since my last xanax, so i've already begun it. It can be done. It must be done for me. Any advice or feedback would be most appreciated. Thanks.
