unsettled
Bluelighter
Good to see everyone is sticking with their tapers and getting off "The Devil's Pod", I haven't had any pods for over a week now, but like I said in a previous post I really believe that I took the biggest hit when I switched to those new weak ass pods a few weeks ago (appears I'm not the only one who had trouble transitioning to those weak ass pods, if you even want to call them pods).
Anyway, I think it was the loperamide and klonopin that really got me through the last part of my taper after I switched to those shit pods cuz I really didn't feel much of a difference when I just stopped the tiny amount of daily pod grounds and kept using the loperamide and klonopin.
The only problem was that after a few days of feeling normal I started getting bored, even though I'm busy as hell playing gigs every night and teaching part time during the day and doing rehearsals. I just couldn't ignore the 50mgs of Subutex I had sitting in my room. So I've been taking a couple milligrams of that a day lately just to scratch that opiate itch in my brain. Unfortunately or fortunately the other night I figured out you can actually get a mild buzz on Subutex when you snort it, it's really pleasant especially after a year of the heavy pod buzz, I feel light as a feather and a thousand times more functional than I have been the previous month. I personally think it's much easier to taper off the subs than the pods, I've done it before but I never knew you could actually get a nice little buzz from them....... anyway, I'm sure the buzz won't last, it feels so much better to be on these subs though, at least I know what I'm taking and I'm not depressed. I tried the Effexor my psychiatrist prescribed and it just put me to sleep and made my anxiety worse, so I'm putting a hold on that, if I really need it I'll start it at some later date.
Even on the subs I've noticed a whole range of emotions start to come back to me that were numb while I was on the good pods, I've also been able to drastically reduce my klonopin dose which is essential because I'm prescribed them daily and had to use more than usual to get through the last few weeks, I would have ran out early if I kept dosing the way I was. Also I haven't felt the need to touch any adderall or alcohol or weed (I know it's the subs, my cravings for alcohol usually comes back when I'm off opiates for awhile). I know I'm an addict and the idea of using anything only on weekends or on special occasions went out the window when I was fifteen and started smoking pot everyday. I've been using something or another daily since then (currently 31yrs old.).
So that's my post-pod status update, just sticking to a couple mgs of sub a day and going to slowly decrease until nothing..... but I'm not making any promises, I'm just glad to be off the pods and not be abusing any other drugs. If I absolutely can't stay away from opiates I may just get a script for subs and stay on a low dose indefinitely, it's better than constantly chasing down some fix, and I can travel with subs which is important. I just can't have opiates be the center of my existence anymore, that was the appeal of pods at first, before the prices went up and quality down it was a easy habit to maintain. My sex drive and desire to converse with women has also returned! Funny the things that you don't even think about when you're on a high enough dose of morphine everyday.
Cheers everyone!
Best of luck to all of you getting off these life consuming intended for ornamental use only "slice of the devils pie" pods!
Anyway, I think it was the loperamide and klonopin that really got me through the last part of my taper after I switched to those shit pods cuz I really didn't feel much of a difference when I just stopped the tiny amount of daily pod grounds and kept using the loperamide and klonopin.
The only problem was that after a few days of feeling normal I started getting bored, even though I'm busy as hell playing gigs every night and teaching part time during the day and doing rehearsals. I just couldn't ignore the 50mgs of Subutex I had sitting in my room. So I've been taking a couple milligrams of that a day lately just to scratch that opiate itch in my brain. Unfortunately or fortunately the other night I figured out you can actually get a mild buzz on Subutex when you snort it, it's really pleasant especially after a year of the heavy pod buzz, I feel light as a feather and a thousand times more functional than I have been the previous month. I personally think it's much easier to taper off the subs than the pods, I've done it before but I never knew you could actually get a nice little buzz from them....... anyway, I'm sure the buzz won't last, it feels so much better to be on these subs though, at least I know what I'm taking and I'm not depressed. I tried the Effexor my psychiatrist prescribed and it just put me to sleep and made my anxiety worse, so I'm putting a hold on that, if I really need it I'll start it at some later date.
Even on the subs I've noticed a whole range of emotions start to come back to me that were numb while I was on the good pods, I've also been able to drastically reduce my klonopin dose which is essential because I'm prescribed them daily and had to use more than usual to get through the last few weeks, I would have ran out early if I kept dosing the way I was. Also I haven't felt the need to touch any adderall or alcohol or weed (I know it's the subs, my cravings for alcohol usually comes back when I'm off opiates for awhile). I know I'm an addict and the idea of using anything only on weekends or on special occasions went out the window when I was fifteen and started smoking pot everyday. I've been using something or another daily since then (currently 31yrs old.).
So that's my post-pod status update, just sticking to a couple mgs of sub a day and going to slowly decrease until nothing..... but I'm not making any promises, I'm just glad to be off the pods and not be abusing any other drugs. If I absolutely can't stay away from opiates I may just get a script for subs and stay on a low dose indefinitely, it's better than constantly chasing down some fix, and I can travel with subs which is important. I just can't have opiates be the center of my existence anymore, that was the appeal of pods at first, before the prices went up and quality down it was a easy habit to maintain. My sex drive and desire to converse with women has also returned! Funny the things that you don't even think about when you're on a high enough dose of morphine everyday.
Cheers everyone!
Best of luck to all of you getting off these life consuming intended for ornamental use only "slice of the devils pie" pods!
I assume it is the same for both sexes?
<------embarrassment smilie.