Hello! I am really struggling and am in need of some help and advice as I am trying to get myself off of all of this medication.
First off, I won't go into details because there's a lot, but I am a true chronic pain sufferer... And although the medication does help with my issues for the most part, I have become so tolerant and addicted to the Oxy, that I have put myself in a really bad place in life. I hate this cycle that I'm in -and I know it's my own fault for getting myself here-
But I know that I can't do this anymore! This has all slowly started ruining my life and livelihood, and I am making this choice to be done with it to get my life back- I've just been having a really hard time and I need to do this right.
Basically, I have been on all sorts of pain meds for well over 10 years now... My health issues are legit, and they had originally put me on Hydros in the beginning- but the meds and dosages have increased over the years, and I am now on a very high dosage of Oxy-
Between the oxycodone and oxycontin, I am prob averaging over 300mg a day- some days a lot more... I then run short every few weeks (obviously because I take way more than directed), and then my withdrawals will kick in... and they set in fast and kick in hard! I've made this bed my own self and I'm ready to wake up and free myself from this hell- Ive noticed that I put the meds above most everything in life... and I am not the type of person who would ever let anything control me in the past. But I have definitely let this get out of control!
I've tried Kratom and Imodium to help ease withdrawals- it def helps, but not that much.
Although I do need the pain relief (and truth be told, I do love the medication), I can't keep doing this to myself and to my family.
So the plan I have is to try to just taper myself off of this stuff without going thru the excruciating withdrawal symptoms- The withdrawals pretty much entirely kill my spirit.. I don't know what is worse- the physical part or the emotional part of the withdrawal-
I'm basically like a zombie, and I have never made it past 4 or 5 days without going crazy and doing anything I can do to make myself feel better.
I know there's no way I can do this cold turkey, so I just got my new scripts filled for the month... 40mg OxyContin and 20mg oxycodone.
I'm ready to do this- to free myself from this...
So I was wondering if anyone out there (who has been in a similar situation), can provide any advice/tips on how to taper off all of this successfully- If there are any vitamins or anything else I should be adding to the mix so that by the months end, I can be free from this hell that I'm in with minimal withdrawal symptoms..
To start with on my first day of the plan, I am aiming to keep under 150mg... For a successful taper, Should I then be decreasing my dose daily- every other day- or weekly?
I need to write myself a plan of action and really stick to it.
I haven't been successful at just minimizing my intake to my prescribed dosage- When I get it in my system, I end up just wanting more and more- I'm a true idiot like that, so it's basically got to be all or nothing for me... and I truly want to be free from this.
I do know this will be a bit tricky because I do have real pain to deal with on top of the addiction -but once I can get myself off of this heavy stuff, I will re-evaluate my pain and aim for different treatments that steer away from the pain meds.
For anyone out there who can help, I thank you so very much in advance for taking the time to read this and help with some ideas!!
For anyone out there who is also going thru this hell, I wish you nothing but the best of luck in getting through this!
For anyone out there that might be negative reacting towards this post for any reason- I understand that too!
It is my own fault that I got myself here and I have to accept that in order to fix this.
... And for everyone out there who has read the entirety of my post here, I do apologize that it got to be so lengthy- I just have never really opened up about this before (and I guess I had a lot to say lol)
Thanks again- and thank you in advance for any help with this!
First off, I won't go into details because there's a lot, but I am a true chronic pain sufferer... And although the medication does help with my issues for the most part, I have become so tolerant and addicted to the Oxy, that I have put myself in a really bad place in life. I hate this cycle that I'm in -and I know it's my own fault for getting myself here-
But I know that I can't do this anymore! This has all slowly started ruining my life and livelihood, and I am making this choice to be done with it to get my life back- I've just been having a really hard time and I need to do this right.
Basically, I have been on all sorts of pain meds for well over 10 years now... My health issues are legit, and they had originally put me on Hydros in the beginning- but the meds and dosages have increased over the years, and I am now on a very high dosage of Oxy-
Between the oxycodone and oxycontin, I am prob averaging over 300mg a day- some days a lot more... I then run short every few weeks (obviously because I take way more than directed), and then my withdrawals will kick in... and they set in fast and kick in hard! I've made this bed my own self and I'm ready to wake up and free myself from this hell- Ive noticed that I put the meds above most everything in life... and I am not the type of person who would ever let anything control me in the past. But I have definitely let this get out of control!
I've tried Kratom and Imodium to help ease withdrawals- it def helps, but not that much.
Although I do need the pain relief (and truth be told, I do love the medication), I can't keep doing this to myself and to my family.
So the plan I have is to try to just taper myself off of this stuff without going thru the excruciating withdrawal symptoms- The withdrawals pretty much entirely kill my spirit.. I don't know what is worse- the physical part or the emotional part of the withdrawal-
I'm basically like a zombie, and I have never made it past 4 or 5 days without going crazy and doing anything I can do to make myself feel better.
I know there's no way I can do this cold turkey, so I just got my new scripts filled for the month... 40mg OxyContin and 20mg oxycodone.
I'm ready to do this- to free myself from this...
So I was wondering if anyone out there (who has been in a similar situation), can provide any advice/tips on how to taper off all of this successfully- If there are any vitamins or anything else I should be adding to the mix so that by the months end, I can be free from this hell that I'm in with minimal withdrawal symptoms..
To start with on my first day of the plan, I am aiming to keep under 150mg... For a successful taper, Should I then be decreasing my dose daily- every other day- or weekly?
I need to write myself a plan of action and really stick to it.
I haven't been successful at just minimizing my intake to my prescribed dosage- When I get it in my system, I end up just wanting more and more- I'm a true idiot like that, so it's basically got to be all or nothing for me... and I truly want to be free from this.
I do know this will be a bit tricky because I do have real pain to deal with on top of the addiction -but once I can get myself off of this heavy stuff, I will re-evaluate my pain and aim for different treatments that steer away from the pain meds.
For anyone out there who can help, I thank you so very much in advance for taking the time to read this and help with some ideas!!
For anyone out there who is also going thru this hell, I wish you nothing but the best of luck in getting through this!
For anyone out there that might be negative reacting towards this post for any reason- I understand that too!
It is my own fault that I got myself here and I have to accept that in order to fix this.
... And for everyone out there who has read the entirety of my post here, I do apologize that it got to be so lengthy- I just have never really opened up about this before (and I guess I had a lot to say lol)
Thanks again- and thank you in advance for any help with this!
