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Mental Health Talk to me

Well i have bipolar disorder and i'm 31 as well so what are the odds. Besides smoking myself silly with weed i have fuck all else to do tonight. I'm not depressed at the moment but i am bored to fuckin hell. I don't get your staying away from women thing though cause yeah well there one of lifers very best pleasures =D
 
nuttynutskin said:
Talk to me
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Whats up bro.


I just realized that I have no fucking friends.
I used to have tons of friends and CLOSE friends like ride or die shit or like brothers.
I was feeling like talking to someone and realized I literally don't have any phone numbers of any friend.
 
Hey guys I'm back from the coast. If anyone wants or needs to chat or whatever I'm here.
 
paranoid android said:
Well i have bipolar disorder and i'm 31 as well so what are the odds. Besides smoking myself silly with weed i have fuck all else to do tonight. I'm not depressed at the moment but i am bored to fuckin hell. I don't get your staying away from women thing though cause yeah well there one of lifers very best pleasures =D
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Smoking weed is probably way better than drinking yourself into an early grave tho. As far as the women thing I've just honestly never had any sort of relationship work out and it starts too feel like what's the point in going through it all again when you have no reason to think things are going to go any different and it will just end in more misery despite starting out good. Part of it's probably pessimism and cowardliness on my part, but I think a lot of people with mental problems like me are less capable of handing heart ache than others.
 
Corazon said:
Whats up bro.


I just realized that I have no fucking friends.
I used to have tons of friends and CLOSE friends like ride or die shit or like brothers.
I was feeling like talking to someone and realized I literally don't have any phone numbers of any friend.
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Hey man, pretty much all of my friends have either moved, fell out of contact with me, or disappeared in one way or another. Really the only 2 friends I'm currently in touch with don't even live anywhere near me, so I totally know where you're coming from. If you ever need to talk to someone I'm totally here for you. Do you use yahoo or skype?
 
nuttynutskin said:
Smoking weed is probably way better than drinking yourself into an early grave tho. As far as the women thing I've just honestly never had any sort of relationship work out and it starts too feel like what's the point in going through it all again when you have no reason to think things are going to go any different and it will just end in more misery despite starting out good. Part of it's probably pessimism and cowardliness on my part, but I think a lot of people with mental problems like me are less capable of handing heart ache than others.
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Yeah i can certainly understand where your coming from there all to well myself so it has nothing to do with any cowardliness on your part. Although it might sound cliche i do believe that it is better to have loved and lost then to have not loved at all. I was in a awful relationship where the chick i was with basically just used me for her own fucked up ends and as someone to have around or some shit i dunno. It took me many months, many drinks and many drugs to get over that but i did. I would much rather atleast try and make it work because then i won't be kicking myself in the balls after for not trying at all which is much worse for me anyway.

Most of my friends are now gone to or atleast all the ones i grew up with are. Though to be fair as i got older i just didn't want as much to do with alot of people anymore. Many of the people i grew up with (the ones that aren't dead, in prison or moved) either bore the living fuck out of me, are annoying or we just have nothing in common to talk about anymore. But everyone goes through this to some extent so it's pretty much just a natural part of getting older.
 
do you have a pet? i always find that petting and taking care of my cat always makes me have a warm happy feeling, if you dont have a pet i suggest you get a cat. just my 2 cents...
 
Blahh... Having one of those nights thinking too much. Depressed about my living situation and everything else as usual. 31 and feel like I've never had a life of my own, but yet when it comes to trying to change anything I feel powerless and don't know what to do. I mean, it can't go on like this forever but sometimes there's just so many problems with seemingly little joy it feels like what's the point. Oh well, if anyone feels like chatting I'll be on probably all night. Maybe I can help someone else out, that usually at least temporarily gets my mind off my own bullshit.
 
I'm here tonight. Not actively depressed as I am at sometimes but am always awake at night and just feeling pretty blah and worried/stressed. You know when your mind goes a hundred miles an hour thinking about something and then you get these little mini panic attacks..like your thinking about what's worrying you/dreading and your heart starts to pound like your facing some immediate danger, adrenaline pumping but after a minute or 2 you get under control...until your mind goes there agai...

I guess not feeling too depressed because things could be worse..plenty of meds at the time, not in too much pain, lol..not terribly broke at the moment..

Holleer back if you are still around tonight.
 
Oh yeah, I know all about the racing thoughts (usually when you really just need to sleep it seems), and panic attacks.

Not really experiencing any of that right now, more just feeling like my life has basically just been one big fuck up for a long time, and don't really see anything changing.



That song about sums it up.
 
Ah..yeah. Almost eerily relate to everything on this thread tonight..I did make a longer reply but it didnt work for some reason so Ill just leave it at that and heres a random question. What was the last thing you laughed really hard about?
 
codienne said:
Ah..yeah. Almost eerily relate to everything on this thread tonight..I did make a longer reply but it didnt work for some reason so Ill just leave it at that and heres a random question. What was the last thing you laughed really hard about?
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Rage Quit...



Apparently this is becoming a video thread. heh
 
Hiya Nutty,
Sending you a GREAT BIG HUG!!!!
I'm sorry that you're feeling so down right now. Please try not to stop yourself from crying. If you need to cry then cry. It's not good for the body to supress your emotions. I tried doing that with codeine n it's really not the answer.
Maybe go have a warm bath or see if you can find a comody? You may not feel like watching a comody but try it still as it may just help even if for a short while.
Thinking of you,
Evey xxx
 
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