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Mental Health Talk to me

nuttynutskin

nuttynutskin

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Sorry if this isn't the right section feel free to move. But I'm just sitting here listening to a Joe Rogan podcast trying not to think about anything or cry feeling about as depressed as I've ever been. Sleep I don't think is going to happen anytime soon or at all tonight. Talk to me or ask me anything and I'll answer.
 
Why are you trying not to cry? I think tears are good--whether it is a misting up of the eyes or buckets of them with sobs--they are about as honest as the body gets. Has your current depression been going on for a long time? I know how exhausting that can be. Is there anything in the past that has ever directly helped?

Last question: what was the Joe Rogan show about?
 
Because it's embarrassing for a full grown man to be alone in his room crying.

Depression started somewhere in high school, probably around 17 or so. I'm 31 now.

As far as anything that's helped, I'd say diet and exercise and staying the hell away from women. As far as meds go I haven't had much success. Just my xanax which is more for anxiety. But I feel like lately it hasn't been working as good. I certainly know when I don't take it tho.

One with Bobcat Goldthwait.
 
I tend to do the same thing, staying up all night but it's my time to reflect. I listen to radio shows: Savage Nation then Coast to Coast with George Noory. I find myself crying a lot and I hate crying because it gives me bad headaches. But sometimes it really is necessary, you're not alone man. I miss my son so much since he went to live with his dad. I got to see him for a couple hours today and that made my day.

I'm bipolar too and waiting on my disability hearing. I can't even get treatment because they cancelled my Medicaid. So they will likely deny my claim again. I guess we have a lot in common. Do you take other meds for your depression? When I was taking Effexor I really did notice if I missed a dose. If you want to talk, I'm usually here at night or if you would rather pm. Take care! <3
 
I used to think the same thing "Grown men shouldn't cry" but after about my second year in the military and seeing some of the stuff I saw I finally said the hell with that bullshit, and finally broke down, and to be quite honest I have seen some of the meanest looking SOB's sob like babies. It is not a sign of weakness so please don't think that.

I also have severe depression for too many years to count , with PTSD and a slew of other things, and basically have no friends and sometimes just feel so alone, I just got over a three month I don't know what to call it, but all I would do is just sit in my room and think about when I used to be normal, high school day's and feel sorry for myself. I am just now trying to bring myself out of that, which made me finally decide to make an account and find some friends on here to talk to.

I too am up at all hours , can't remember when I got a real nights sleep, to many bad dreams, too much over thinking life ect. So if you ever need someone to talk to I would be happy to. With me being a new member if you wanted to talk private since I can not get private messages yet you would have to click on email me, but I am here for you.
 
T. Calderone said:
I tend to do the same thing, staying up all night but it's my time to reflect. I listen to radio shows: Savage Nation then Coast to Coast with George Noory. I find myself crying a lot and I hate crying because it gives me bad headaches. But sometimes it really is necessary, you're not alone man. I miss my son so much since he went to live with his dad. I got to see him for a couple hours today and that made my day.

I'm bipolar too and waiting on my disability hearing. I can't even get treatment because they cancelled my Medicaid. So they will likely deny my claim again. I guess we have a lot in common. Do you take other meds for your depression? When I was taking Effexor I really did notice if I missed a dose. If you want to talk, I'm usually here at night or if you would rather pm. Take care! <3
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That's really lame, do you have a lawyer? It's really hard to get SSI for mental illness on your own. It took me 3 tries. I'm not currently taking any other meds but I've been through several. They all either gave me side effects I didn't like or made me worse. I've sort of given up on finding anything else since all of the newer medications aren't covered with my health plan. And yes we can talk, in fact I'll add you to friends if that's ok.
 
Hi Twizztid, love your moniker. Depression sucks and a lot of people simply don't understand unless they've suffered too. I found out who my "real" friends were and I would have never thought certain people would turn their backs on me. But they did and it hurts. Bluelight's got some great people to talk to so you found the right place!
 
nuttynutskin said:
That's really lame, do you have a lawyer? It's really hard to get SSI for mental illness on your own. It took me 3 tries. I'm not currently taking any other meds but I've been through several. They all either gave me side effects I didn't like or made me worse. I've sort of given up on finding anything else since all of the newer medications aren't covered with my health plan. And yes we can talk, in fact I'll add you to friends if that's ok.
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Cool yeah, add me! I went with a disability law firm last October. They denied me so we're appealing and I'm supposed to get a hearing soon. But they keep telling me I have to show more documentation, meaning go to doctor or hospital. I have other health problems besides bipolar. Having no health coverage, I can't go to a doctor.

When I need to go to the hospital, my dad throws a fit. He has trouble getting around since he hurt his back. But the truth is, he can't stand being alone and used to me doing everything for him. So he bitches I have no money coming in (besides my piddly monthly retirement check) and I tell him I will never win this case if I don't go to hospital. My last mental health hospital trip they kept me 6 days and I had to plead with them to let me out. Mental health holds are only supposed to be 72 hours but once they have you, they can keep you as long as they want.

It's never a good time as far as Pop's concerned. But I have to take care of me, nobody can do it for me right! So I'm planning to have a friend drive me there. I had to sell my car when my son totaled grandpa's truck. (another long story) But I'm having trouble with my liver and it needs to be addressed. I have so many unpaid medical bills, so another one won't make too much difference.
 
Twizztid said:
I too am up at all hours , can't remember when I got a real nights sleep, to many bad dreams, too much over thinking life ect. So if you ever need someone to talk to I would be happy to. With me being a new member if you wanted to talk private since I can not get private messages yet you would have to click on email me, but I am here for you.
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Sure man, didn't realize this thread would actually turn into anything worth while. But I guess a lot of people here struggle with a lot of the same sort of problems and have a better understanding of others that also do.
 
Sorry that's way too complicated dude for as much of a fog that my head is in right now, and soon to be foggier. Bring on the vodka to numb the pain...
 
Yesterday Pops sent me to buy him some scotch. They were promoting Stolichnaya chocolate flavor and I just had to sample it. Wow it was surprisingly smooth. Too bad I can't drink but it's just as well. It increases my depression like nothing else.
 
T. Calderone said:
Yesterday Pops sent me to buy him some scotch. They were promoting Stolichnaya chocolate flavor and I just had to sample it. Wow it was surprisingly smooth. Too bad I can't drink but it's just as well. It increases my depression like nothing else.
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I don't really like sweet alcoholic drinks but I think that may be a male thing. Maybe not entirely, but for the most part I've noticed that women are usually the ones ordering that sort of shit. But anyways, for me alcohol is a double edged sword. Sometimes it seems to help things, but other times it has totally exacerbated situations. I've never done anything really malicious like beat anyone or gotten physical, but there are many times I've had regrets about things I've said or done while intoxicated.
 
T. Calderone said:
Hi Twizztid, love your moniker. Depression sucks and a lot of people simply don't understand unless they've suffered too. I found out who my "real" friends were and I would have never thought certain people would turn their backs on me. But they did and it hurts. Bluelight's got some great people to talk to so you found the right place!
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Got to love the Grumpy Cat :P , and yes you do learn who really is there for you, and who were just fair weather friends. Having people turn their backs on you when you need them the most does hurt, and IMO a dick move, but I guess it's a good thing since I guess they did not care in the first place. I am learning that Bluelight is a great place for somebody like me,I can talk to people who actually understand and do not judge, or at least that is my hope.
 
Hundreds of channels including two premium channels that cost extra. The old man watches Mary Tyler Moore, Daniel Boone, Perry Mason and all these really old schmaltzy programs. Not really my taste but they don't offend me. The ones I cannot handle: Operation Repo, Honey Boo-boo and South Beach Tow. I can't even listen to that stupidity.

I'm not a big tv watching person, I mostly sit here and overhear it you know. Do you have any favorites?
 
Forgive my television rant and keep this focused on mental health. I have a theory that our pets can become depressed just like us. I have two dogs both mixed lab unknown. We have had the female since 2003 and she was already grown. My friend found her in Miami so I'm guessing she's 11 or 12 but she has never been sick, very healthy and too smart for her own good.

We got the boy dog in 2005 as a 12 week puppy. He's always been sensitive and skittish. He started having health problems, like losing his hair at age 3. The vet cold only guess it's some sort of allergy but it looked bad like mange. The medications helped but lost their effectiveness. They give him medicated baths, salve for his eyes because of the constant mucous and antibiotics. It's one thing or another keeping him sickly. His hair came back for a while but recently losing it again.

Things took a turn for the worse after my son went to live with his dad. Bear always hung out in Timmy's room but it got to the point where he would stay on the bed and not come out, only to go outside for potty. He stopped eating and the vet suggested making him rice and chicken. He ate that for about 2 days then went back to his hunger strike. The last trip to the vet, they weighed him and he was down to 55 pounds, where he used to weigh over 70. They gave him a b-12shot and I explained what's happened in our home situation.

The doctor agreed and said of course he misses my son. He's not eating because he's grieving just like we are. I've been so wrapped up in my own sadness that I didn't consider my pets are hurting too. Bear's starting to get his appetite back though I have spoiled him giving him canned food with the dry. I made stew Tuesday and ended up giving him most of it. I have to spoil the other one too, it's only fair! It's going to take some time for him to heal and gain some weight back. But I have to really make an effort to be more cheerful. I never realized depression is contagious!
 
T. Calderone said:
I'm not a big tv watching person, I mostly sit here and overhear it you know. Do you have any favorites?
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I like Spongebob lol. Also like cooking and travel shows. Like it sounds with you I can't stand "reality" shows. Make me wanna tear my hair out. Shit's so fake.
 
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