take the pieces and build them skywards

The doctor filled my valium prescriptions again. But she wants me to go back in before she will give me any more. I swear I will crack up if she stops them. I can't cope with life. I can't take the shit I am getting at work and I can't handle the loneliness at home. I just want to feel ok. I am so afraid. And I can't tell anyone. I can't take off the mask. What the fuck is happening to me? I am so afraid. I just want to be ok.