T10 Paraplegic messed up with PM needs advice.

[Paraplegic]

Sorry if this is in the wrong thread...please put it where it belongs if not

I am a T-10 complete due to gun shot wound 6 years post.
So after being with my current Dr. for five years, I was called today and told that i was being discharged. Due to my past urine screen coming up for and "illegal substance". The crazy thing is that i am the one who asked for a culture to be done on my last visit, bout 2 weeks ago, to make sure a recurring UTI i had was completely gone. He Rarely Urine screens me. I feel bad because we had a good relationship and he even knows i smoke M. for quality of life issues and spasms, though i dont live in a M.M. state, he didnt have a problem with it, as i told him on my first visit.
The Problem is that it came back positive for something else. I think?. . I was offered something at a party the previous weekend (5 days previous) and decided to do some. It was a stupid mistake and is not something i normally dont do. I figured that it would be out of my system within 72 hrs. The testing they do at PM is just a dip panel test. I figure after being sent off for the culture is when something was found.
I do have severe pain and spasms 24/7. Two kinds really, The "on fire" legs an butt and physical pain in my back. I have tried many types of pain relief. The current meds i am on are an Opiate for pain (which has been amped up over time) and a Benzo for spasms. These meds help my pain A LOT and make it so i can live a decent life. Oxycodone 30 mg 4 X day/ methadone 10 mg 3xday
/valium 10 mg 3 times a day
I am very scared of the future now and dont know what to do. I will have severe withdraw and be in so much pain that i will not be able to do much other than lie in bed.
I know the obvious answer is to find a new Dr. It was very difficult for me to find this one though. Plus, what Dr. is going to take a patient who just got discharged for "that"? I called a couple PM Drs. in my area today but they want a refferal from "my dr" for an appointment. I am now to be labled a "drug seeker". YES, I AM dependent on my meds. Otherwise Im in a lot of pain. Does that make me a drug seeker? Yes i messed up and did something i shouldnt have, Im sure im not addicted to it though and dont do it on any regular basis.
Has anyone been through this?...and willing to admit it on this forum? Or have any advice on getting a new Dr. Please save the "shame on you's" as i know i messed up.
I have tried the few pain clinics in the area and they either want a referal from my dr...who wont talk to me. Or. One did a "self referal" over the phone. They called back the next day and said they wouldnt help me.
I am thinking of checking myself into a rehab or something because the wds from these meds PLUS being a paraplegic is 10xhorrid, I cant do anything other than lay in bed and shit/piss myself it sucks. I only have medicare/medicaid and the one hospital i hear of in the area scares me to death. they are not equipped to handle a paraplegic.
Do think maybe a psychiatrist would/could help me?
I dont think the er will help because they will just see me as a drug seeker.
I am dependent on my meds for sure....it sucks. They are the only thing which help me to function day to day tho as central pain is hardcore.
detoxing me will only help the wds ...itt wont help the pain.
Please help with any positive ideas,
peace
B

 

[Paraplegic]

this is a few day old thread that i posted on another pm site....as to not have to rewrite it all. I am gonna be out of meds in one day...i have tried a few Drs and none have worked. I cant even do much to help myself as all this stress has made my pain worse.central pain does that.
I have been brainstorming on this and i THINK that my ex roommates POS mother who just got out of jail ,a day before i got the call from my clinic,for a year and a day might have contacted my dr and made up a bunch of bs. She went to my dr, at one time and was the only one who knew i saw him. Her daughter was pissed at me when she moved out....she could/would have told her mom to do whatever because she is a pos 2.
ughh

 

[kanyeknievel]

What drug was it that came up?

I dont see how any doctor can refuse to treat you for being a parapalegic and being on a high dose of opiates and benzos for such a long time. Thats rediculous, can't your PD prescribe you the oxycodone, valium, etc. until your able to find a doctor? tell him that you were released from your treatment and you really need your medication, clearly they should be able to tell that you need it

 

[Paraplegic]

yea you would think so I my dr was my primary car dr and pm dr. as well. The only other dr. i have is a urologist. Last time it took 2 weeks for an appt to see him.
Im so Lost and scared right now
I really cant believe that girl would do that to me. I know secrets about her and her boyfriend which would send them to jail for 20 plus easy. not 2 mention, i took her in when she called me crying saying she had no where else to live, and needed a place for a couple months. She lived with me for a year and a half.....
She saw the intense pain in which i go through 247 365. She saw all the gatherings i missed cause it was raining or i was in tooo much pain despite being medicated.
I cant believe my Dr. is allowed to abandon me on the amount of meds im on.!?
i know....porb in the "contract"
I live in NO. Fl....a whole nother ballgame then so. fl....where people get 3 times the amount of meds i do for much less of a serious injury. The drs here are all scared to write anything. You have no idea how hard it was to even get the amount of meds i did. VERY HARD.
If any one live in No central fl maybe you could point me in the right direction?....sorry if that breaking the rules. im new here. I just need help

 

[Paraplegic]

ooo i dont know what drug game up the "nurse" who called me just said an illegal substance. i had got kicked around a couple of drs in this town when i first got hurt because i smoke green. it hels my quality of lif my pain and my spasms, I told him that off the bat and he said it wouldnt be a problem as long as thats all i did. I may have done a little bit of C. at a party 100 plus hours previous, but everyone said it was garbage, 80 percent baby lax. Shoulda been out of my urine for sure by then. Even if not, the dr and i had such a good relationship, i think he woulda seen me and suggested rehab or something. Thats what made me start thinkin,,,then finding out about that POS release from jail.
I asked for the friggin urine test so they could send it off for a culture, as i wanted to make sure a reccuring uti, ive been having was gone.
Im thinking he just used that as an excuse to discharge me, after the girls mom went and told him whatever story. It musta been pretty bad tho, because he wouldnt even talk to me. I was allowed t write a letter to him in the waiting room , and asked him to please be humane and write scrits for one month to have time to get another dr. he never called me back!

 

[dcraver877]

man go in the doctor's office when is there and refuse to leave until he handles it the proper way! make the police come if you have to. you need to make a big deal out of this so you can get proper treatment.

in fact, if you have to, go in there when you are in severe withdrawal and make a scene in their waiting room. Shit and piss all over their floor until they do something about it.

 

[Paraplegic]

0pee. I have cut down my meds a lot since i heard this was happening. I was prescribed methadone as well as oxy and valium. I started taking twice the m. and half or less of the O. I have been to the er a couple times in WDs when i first got hurt because "they" were still adjusting my meds and i ran out a couple times . They turned me away , and said i was a drug seeker. yea duh...im a freakin para. got shot 5 TIMES (he emptied the 7 bullet clip on me at close range)....one is still in my liver, one put me in a wheelchair for the rest of my life and i cant feel below my waist. Except horrid crushing central pain. NOT 2 MENTION the person who shot me was an off duty paramedic who worked in that hospital. I always feel like half the people working there are/were his fiends. Even though he was proven guilty for attempted murder and assault w a fire arm. He will be in jail to his 70s. Im lucky its not THE 70s i guess.Back then people would complain of what is now known as central pain...the worst pain now known of now, and Drs would think they were lying. Many still think we are lying ...its sad. I should have needed my meds filled on the 28th i have stretched them and had to go "elsewhere" . I can get some subs. I was scared to take them tho. What if i do find a dr and he urine screens me? Ive heard subs dont show up?? but im still scared. Also because ive been on methadone sooo long im scared of the "instant wds" ive heard of, because done has such a long half life.
DCRAVER... I have thought of doing this, but im scared i will be the one who ends up in jail. THAT would be horrid! What is the "proper" way?? . I do plan on reporting him to the board of medicine and filling as many complaints as i can. I have his plate number and know where he lives to
Even if im able to get myself off the meds. get through the wds... I will still be in pain. I cant handle that.
I have thought of checking myself into a rehab...that seems scary too as ive heard many horror stories.
Will a psycologist be able to be prescribe me pain meds? It seems that may be one of the few choices i MAY? have. I only have medicare/medicaid secondary...i dont think a psyc. will even take those.
PLEASE GIVE ME SOME IDEAS.
I know i need to find another dr. They wont give me my medical records, unless i pay 1.50 a page!!!
I am a new member but a long time lurker here.

 

[Paraplegic]

any others?? please. just dont tell me i messed up,because I KNOW, and every second i am paying for it

 

[amapola]

I think the reason you aren't getting many answers is because no one understands how if you are clearly in physical pain from a chronic traumatic injury you aren't getting the minimum amount of drugs you require whether you have abused them or not. Hell even hard core heroin addicts can get treated for their addiction with methadone (a powerful pain med). I really don't know what else to tell you or even what type of other advice you are looking for. Also what do you mean they won't give you your medical records? I'm not from the states so perhaps I just don't understand the system.

Kratom is legal in the US if you are looking for an opioid to help with the withdrawals, though from my experience it doesn't have the greatest painkilling abilities just euphoria and too much of it is nauseating.