I found this trip report on a wasted notebook in the basement, the title reads 'The Mescalito Diary', it's not something I came up with now.
Actually I haven't even reread it myself yet, but I'll translate it for everyone to read.
It took place in my maternal house that I had for myself in part of the summer of 2010, and my best friend R was there to stay with me but did not partake. I was having a difficult time and recall using a lot of dextroamphetamine powder, though not during or around the trip.
August 6th 2010
10:00 am Wake up
10:10 am Drink ginger tea / herbal infusion, back to bed
11:30 am R woke me up
11:45 am Take 117 mg mescaline dissolved in water
12:00 pm Take another 117 mg, had a shower
12:15 pm Last 117 mg portion, feeling an alert?
12:20 pm Tidying up, preparing laptop and chewing gum for the bitter soapy taste. Walking around a little aimlessly.
While getting dressed I glanced at a pair of my mother's shoes and could make up the word "tripping" actually printed in the footbedding.
12:22 pm My hearing seems to have gained sharpness and acuity.
12:34 pm I go lie down on bed for a moment and can feel energy and mescaline flowing through my body. I am very aware of my stomach sitting so, but when I let go of everything there is no nausea.
R walks towards me, I tell him about the nature of the body load and suddenly feel a surge of nausea coming up. Not really terrible, but within a minute I am throwing up in the toilet.
It relieves but I fear having lost some of the material.
Then at the living room table, I am starting to feel very affected. Overwhelmed by emotion. I lie down on the wooden floor in fetal position, this is unquestionably something holotropic.
(Not much time has passed since last timestamp) - I spend some time on the floor with a pillow processing emotions and have the most perfect beautiful sadness I ever felt.
I saw a picture of my niece who passed away at 3, I spontaneously play the piano, then intuitively I play my variation of 'Put you together again' by Hot Chocolate - nostalgic and sentimental - I feel
the melancholy and vivid remembrance of many memories.
I improvise from the heart before talking with R about it all. We move to the kitchen and talk some more, things are turning more spiritual and discussion was about letting go of everything and ego
death.
Probably ~ 1 pm I went to lie down upstairs on a bed, and was having flashes of OOBE, ego death and notions like 'there is no me that has to let go of everything'. The flashes ramp up in frequency and feel more electric shock like.
I go downstairs and talk with R about it, he is reaffirmative.
Going upstairs again having the same flashes, and they stabilize more and more in an ego dissolved state.
Talking again at the kitchen table, I have an awakening, the trip that was never visual or trippy to begin with turns even more lucid and clear. I feel like my native self, peaceful and in harmony, no thought or feeling seems out of place.
We listen to some loungy music, later that day we went for a beautiful walk and watched some series. Headspace actually turned spacey later on.
* Super transparent
* Natural, very beautiful
* Honest
Actually I haven't even reread it myself yet, but I'll translate it for everyone to read.
It took place in my maternal house that I had for myself in part of the summer of 2010, and my best friend R was there to stay with me but did not partake. I was having a difficult time and recall using a lot of dextroamphetamine powder, though not during or around the trip.
August 6th 2010
10:00 am Wake up
10:10 am Drink ginger tea / herbal infusion, back to bed
11:30 am R woke me up
11:45 am Take 117 mg mescaline dissolved in water
12:00 pm Take another 117 mg, had a shower
12:15 pm Last 117 mg portion, feeling an alert?
12:20 pm Tidying up, preparing laptop and chewing gum for the bitter soapy taste. Walking around a little aimlessly.
While getting dressed I glanced at a pair of my mother's shoes and could make up the word "tripping" actually printed in the footbedding.
12:22 pm My hearing seems to have gained sharpness and acuity.
12:34 pm I go lie down on bed for a moment and can feel energy and mescaline flowing through my body. I am very aware of my stomach sitting so, but when I let go of everything there is no nausea.
R walks towards me, I tell him about the nature of the body load and suddenly feel a surge of nausea coming up. Not really terrible, but within a minute I am throwing up in the toilet.
It relieves but I fear having lost some of the material.
Then at the living room table, I am starting to feel very affected. Overwhelmed by emotion. I lie down on the wooden floor in fetal position, this is unquestionably something holotropic.
(Not much time has passed since last timestamp) - I spend some time on the floor with a pillow processing emotions and have the most perfect beautiful sadness I ever felt.
I saw a picture of my niece who passed away at 3, I spontaneously play the piano, then intuitively I play my variation of 'Put you together again' by Hot Chocolate - nostalgic and sentimental - I feel
the melancholy and vivid remembrance of many memories.
I improvise from the heart before talking with R about it all. We move to the kitchen and talk some more, things are turning more spiritual and discussion was about letting go of everything and ego
death.
Probably ~ 1 pm I went to lie down upstairs on a bed, and was having flashes of OOBE, ego death and notions like 'there is no me that has to let go of everything'. The flashes ramp up in frequency and feel more electric shock like.
I go downstairs and talk with R about it, he is reaffirmative.
Going upstairs again having the same flashes, and they stabilize more and more in an ego dissolved state.
Talking again at the kitchen table, I have an awakening, the trip that was never visual or trippy to begin with turns even more lucid and clear. I feel like my native self, peaceful and in harmony, no thought or feeling seems out of place.
We listen to some loungy music, later that day we went for a beautiful walk and watched some series. Headspace actually turned spacey later on.
* Super transparent
* Natural, very beautiful
* Honest
definitely on my list of psyches to-do.
