PenelopeJonez
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- Jun 25, 2015
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Hello new friends. I am here to today to hopefully receive help, opinions and experiences about what I'm currently going through. I have been on Methadone for a little over a year. I was addicted to Oc's for about 4 years. My addiction came to a sudden halt, when I found out I was pregnant. For most people, living a life of addiction is not a good place to bring a child forth into, but for me it was my wake up call and a reason to get my life together. So when I went to the Dr, I confessed to them about my OC addiction. They took it surprisingly well and referred me to a methadone clinic and outpatient program. I had no idea it was so easy to lose a child from Opiate withdrawal, but I wanted to do the right thing. My friends and peers that surrounded me, treated me absolutely horrible over being on methadone and acted like I was doing it as another way to get high while I was pregnant. Needless to say, I lost many good friends. I'm still very hurt about it, but I have a beautiful baby boy that smiles back at me and makes me forget. The highest I got on my dose was 115mg. Anyways, I knew from the get go it wasn't something that I wanted to be on forever, so I began titrating down right away. Many months ago, I sought out a dr for subs and it was an intense search and fight to find one here. Most of the drs near me are full. I have to travel to see the dr I finally was referred to by my care cordinator and physician. I drive an hour there and an hour back. When I first met my Dr, she told me I needed to get to 20 mg at least before she would even consider transferring me. I was surprised because I had been told by many others most Dr's would do it at 30 mg. So I did what she requested and got down to 20 mg and when I went to see her, they had lost my current Ua's from before, and after further runaround I was turned away and told once again that I had to get lower. At this point I had driven to that clinic 6-7 times. I was dropping 6 mgs a week. I finally got down to 11 mgs and had an appt with her and I was very frustrated and at my end point about waiting so we finally came up with a plan. She prescribed me phenagrine, clonadine and subutex. I was supposed to stop taking opiates right away and that wednesday morning (3 days ago), was my last dose of methadone. However, on Thursday and Friday I took some Kratom and 1 20 mg OP. I did this because I still had many things to do and prepare for being sick. I also thought my plan would give the methadone a little more time to get off my receptors before I went cold-turkey. The last Opiate I took was at about 8:30 pm last night and it was the 20 mg OP. I had been taking Kratom all day. It's now almost 7pm and I've made it through most of the day taking the clonadine, Phenagrin and a Tazanadine. My plan was to try and make it until early tomorrow night before I take a 4 mg subutex. Does anyone out there think my plan is ok, or that I might be able to take a subutex sooner? By the way, because I know the why am I switching question is coming. I'm doing it because I hate the way Methadone makes me feel. I don't have the energy to do Yoga like I used to, do as much with my kids, and I have been battling severe depression. Not to mention, I have gained a heaping 75-80 lbs being on the methadone. I want my life and energy back. I want to exercise and be out in the sunshine having fun like normal people do. Thanks for your time