So I've spend the past 3 years off and on (mostly on) the big boy narcotika - oxycodone/morphone until that sweet brown note touched me in all the right places.
Ive burned through 400 out of 500mg of phenazepam in about a year and a half or so. I wont go into details, but lets just say it takes 8-12mg's for me to even FEEL the stuff now. When I was naive, 1mg had me fairly benz'd for about a day, so I know its not bunk substance. Now 12mg's is my "going to bed" dose.
Now here's the catch:
When I splurge and go on a junk binge for a couple weeks, I dont take my phenazepam. At all. I feel no withdrawal effects while I'm on the euphoric plane. Of course, to get through w/d's, I jump on the benzo train.
Once I jump back on, 2-3 mg's gets me good. So I KNOW its being cleared from my body.
Even bupe works. Even though I dont get high, I experimented with taking straight bupe for 3 weeks (since its so cheap), and experienced no "benzo" withdrawal.
Doesn't make sense, right?
At the doses I'm taking (12mg's = 120mg dilaudid approx, or 12mg xanax (though I don't agree with that)), shouldn't I be knee deep in shit within a week or so of abstinence, regardless of opiates?
Am I masking a mountain of hellish benzo withdrawals with my off-and-on opiate use?
Am I walking into something I'm physically and mentally not prepared for?
Ive burned through 400 out of 500mg of phenazepam in about a year and a half or so. I wont go into details, but lets just say it takes 8-12mg's for me to even FEEL the stuff now. When I was naive, 1mg had me fairly benz'd for about a day, so I know its not bunk substance. Now 12mg's is my "going to bed" dose.
Now here's the catch:
When I splurge and go on a junk binge for a couple weeks, I dont take my phenazepam. At all. I feel no withdrawal effects while I'm on the euphoric plane. Of course, to get through w/d's, I jump on the benzo train.
Once I jump back on, 2-3 mg's gets me good. So I KNOW its being cleared from my body.
Even bupe works. Even though I dont get high, I experimented with taking straight bupe for 3 weeks (since its so cheap), and experienced no "benzo" withdrawal.
Doesn't make sense, right?
At the doses I'm taking (12mg's = 120mg dilaudid approx, or 12mg xanax (though I don't agree with that)), shouldn't I be knee deep in shit within a week or so of abstinence, regardless of opiates?
Am I masking a mountain of hellish benzo withdrawals with my off-and-on opiate use?
Am I walking into something I'm physically and mentally not prepared for?