Poppa'_$murfxXx
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The other night i was hearing voices all night while on cocaine. i was really fucked up because i hadn't had much sleep, and the cocaine was very good. half way through the session i was geting paranoid and when i did a big hit, i heard voices talking to me. the voices continued throughout the night into the morning, i was soi paranoid i stopped doing coke got a big dagger and was making plans of how i was going to react when the people enetered my room.
The past week i have been getting incresingly more paranoid at night when i do cocaine. I am geting more paranoid because of the people i have been surrounding myself with. They dont know where i live but im always anxiouse that poeple are going to follow me home to findout where i live. Also the police were at my friends house thwe other night looking for me, so this added to my paranoya.
Two night ago when i was on cocaine and hearing voices and such, was the most intense experience i have had in a long time. I hated it, i did not do any cocaine last night because of that. My paranoya stems from beliefs that are so unlikely, but i have let them take over my life. I try to push them aside and tell myself to not worry because thats nopt going to happen, but my family is so important to me they always come back.
When i was high the other night i was not only haveing auditory halusinations but also visual halusinations like shadows, small spider haningin from the cieling and just random colours appearing.
I dont know exactly why im writing this post, but i was thinking about doing it for the past day and i decided to go ahead and wriote it to see what the responses would be like. I feel like going into greater detail but i think this is enough.
The past week i have been getting incresingly more paranoid at night when i do cocaine. I am geting more paranoid because of the people i have been surrounding myself with. They dont know where i live but im always anxiouse that poeple are going to follow me home to findout where i live. Also the police were at my friends house thwe other night looking for me, so this added to my paranoya.
Two night ago when i was on cocaine and hearing voices and such, was the most intense experience i have had in a long time. I hated it, i did not do any cocaine last night because of that. My paranoya stems from beliefs that are so unlikely, but i have let them take over my life. I try to push them aside and tell myself to not worry because thats nopt going to happen, but my family is so important to me they always come back.
When i was high the other night i was not only haveing auditory halusinations but also visual halusinations like shadows, small spider haningin from the cieling and just random colours appearing.
I dont know exactly why im writing this post, but i was thinking about doing it for the past day and i decided to go ahead and wriote it to see what the responses would be like. I feel like going into greater detail but i think this is enough.