Suicide

It has crossed my mind many times before.. It seems like the right thing to do sometimes, yet I always find a reason not to. Right now I'm fighting that urge or even the thought of it. I have too many things to do in life, before I go.. I'm sick of feeling suicidal and I think it's time to forget about the feelings and what makes me feel that way because there are people in my life who would be left with too many questions. Whenever I go it won't be deliberately by my own hands, I have to much to do in life to decide for myself when my end will be.

 

have you talked to a therapist or someone about these feelings? the right therapist can be a lifesaver (quite literally).

 

I always sought that if one truly wanted to die, they ought to think about it at the best of times, any other time time would definately be affected by some other factor or a rash thought which was, for the moment, so to speak.

Hang in there, fullfill your dreams, see the world. exploit the emotions you feel and write, poetry, music, anything really.

You may be the happiest man in the world as soon as those feelings dissipate, please don't ever let something SO temportary deprive you of the opportunities that lay ahead of you.

If I may recommend a book-- Herman Hesse's 'Siddhartha' helped me through tough time in my own life. Its a short novel about a boy seeking enlightenment with the only three skills he has: thinking, waiting and fasting

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I've thought of opting out during some very "challenging " times in the past. I think the reason I don't anymore is that I realized that suicide is forever, and we're not on the Earth for all that long, really. I believe I can stick it out for the little while I've been given.If only to see what happens next.