suicide

[unicorn83]

silent screams crowding ones head
brick walls surround ones heart
trying to cry out
but fear holds you back
another disappointment would lead you to your death.
endless nights of images
piercing your heart with a cold
yet,
a freedoms knife.
loss of thought, loss of feeling, an unimaginative bliss
walking on a thin line
of life or death
seeking and holding on to the unknown
freedom in life? death?
confused, lost and scared you crawl into bed at night,
pray to be taken away,
too scared to take it into your own hands.
as the consequences, are too painful to bare
i drift away, night after night day after day,
emotionally, as it's masked by a smile,
hoping for the day to physically fade away.

 

[harraser]

"I have come curiously close to the end down
beneath my self indulgent pitiful hole
defeated I conceed and move closer
I may find comfort here and
I may find peace within the emptiness
how pitiful
and its calling me"-reflection-tool
there is no freedom in death,to seek death is to seek nothingness,theres no freedom there.the true freedom is in life,freedom to change the things that make you want to end it,make them better or just drop them and move on,whatever it takes to be happy.but most of all think of your freinds, Im sure you dont want to leave them behind, Ive only known you for a little while but I cant afford to lose any more freinds this way and..... well I dont know how to put it......suicide isnt the answer.I liked your writing but reading stuff like this always scares me.

 

[libertyman323]

many poems i just feel for because of the feeling or the emotion that it captures. this is truly one of them.
truly.

 

[kidblue]

I understand!!!!!
adderal makes me not think about it in the day time....
effexor makes me not think about it at night....

 

[unicorn83]

don't worry this was no indication of suicide
"the consequences, are too painful to bare"
i've seen what might happen if i did die, i'd rather be alive than cause pain in loved ones hearts.
thanx

 

[plazma]

Great work, rather depressing sentiment!
-plaz out-

 

[The Good Me]

this is something we all go through. You are not alone in these thoughts. Everyone gets scared, overwhelmed, and there are many ways one can come out from it. But, look at it this way. If it is only because you don't want to hurt family members that you stay your hand, then truly you are free. free from judgement, free from fear. and that is true freedom. You see, you don't have to get the crappy job and work to maintain the status quo, you don't need to live in a place you despise, nor stay in a relationship that does not make you happy. You were already prepared to die. what more can this terrible world do to you. Nothing.