Suicide Note to My Lover

[Rollingrrl]

lonely nights and bright sunrises
fruitless and wistful yearnings
my life harbors no more suprises
my eyes dry, red and burning.
marveling at today's existance
and my place withen it is gone.
still alive at your insistance
i intended not to see this dawn
yet here I am in body only
yours to play with, I'm a pawn
the face I wear feels so phony
a perfect carbon copy I am.
what good can my life still have?
all the good things from which I ran,
only get one chance in this life.
was it inherently flawed, my plan?
fate tormenting and taunting me
until I give in and pick up the knife
my end is in a box made of tree
solid wood encases my emtpy shell
the man I loved is laughing with glee
i laugh back, I'll see you in hell.
no fear left inside my dead heart
gone from my body is all the fight
at least I did it, played my part
i surrendered myself to the night.


~Shelly~

 

[neverwas]

this was very powerful hun i really liked these sections:

yet here I am in body only
yours to play with, I'm a pawn
the face I wear feels so phony
a perfect carbon copy I am.

my end is in a box made of tree
solid wood encases my emtpy shell
the man I loved is laughing with glee
i laugh back, I'll see you in hell.

i surrendered myself to the night.

your writtings outstanding :D

 

[haste]

Shelly - as always I marvel at your work

 

[AmorRoark]

beautiful..... one of my favorite poems i've read on bluelight.

 

[E-girl]

yet here I am in body only
yours to play with, I'm a pawn
the face I wear feels so phony
a perfect carbon copy I am.

yeah.... i felt a certain shiver when i read this part too.
you mastered it wonderfully, as usual.

 

[frostyangel]

you get better each time.....