Suffocation Day

[frostyangel]

Most days...I'm okay.
But today, today I don't
know what to say.
How is it that everything
could be going so right,
but inside you begin to
fade.
And the memories of a
life time won't go away.
Even though they pretend
them to be, ceasing in their
convictions. And then,
here I am......
drowning..today
drowning...yesterday
straving for....tomorrow
I feel like there is no time,
no room..I feel as if my time
is about to expire. I have
been holding on to everyone
elses' last breath. What happens
when there is noone left to breathe
upon.
When the path we all are taking
is a long time in passing out of
existence. And the fear of over-
whelming hopelessness, breaks
our barriers, to the depths of our
doors. Failing to support what is
most exspected of us. Leaving
traces of unwanting destinys.
Breathe the sudden highly desirable,
wings of the notion. Working in
every emotion of my life. A device
of impressing the stone cold dagger
that triggers the eye. Punches of
anothers under drawn fight.
Why couldn't everything just be
alright. And what I forgot to see,
or was it that I just let it all escape.
The mind that wanted to be free.
Can you help me see, everything
in me. Could you let me be, without
agonizing my emotions. Perceiving
sensations physically. I felt the
interests of my heart growing fonder.
I persuaded my mind to not go to
the darkest sky that hangs so black.
I just want the bluest of skies, to
concern all hope in you. But I wanted
that emotion to ride the same path,
as your future. And the memories
we can think of together.
No more wasted time on the undergoing
past. For I will not let it affect my future any-
more. Show me inclination. Test my energetic
level of happiness. Draw fourth, the perception
of touch. So I feel the warmth of your hearts'
rapture, and let me suffocate no more.

 

[kasperBoy]

great job hunnie!!!
KASPER

 

[E-girl]

And the memories of a
life time won't go away.
sometimes when you write, i feel like you're writing about my life.

No more wasted time on the undergoing
past. For I will not let it affect my future any-
more.
i was struggling with issues of my past this morning too, and i let it affect how i treated danny. i shouldnt have, after how good he is to me. thanks for the reminder that the past really is just the past. and that the future can be whatever we want it to be.
nice poem.

 

[punch e punch]

Originally posted by frostyangel:

How is it that everything
could be going so right,
but inside you begin to
fade.
And the memories of a
life time won't go away.
Even though they pretend
them to be, ceasing in their
convictions. And then,
here I am......

I cant quite put my finger on it, but this poem seems to sum up some feelings in me at the moment.
Life could b going so well for me right now, but the pain and confusion of the past is holding me back and making me feel very confused about my present feelings.
Dunno if that has anything to do with what inspired ur work, but that's just how i related to it. Thanku

 

[rm-rf]

Only thing we can do is know is our priorities, our goals, and find the path to get there. Then you can ignore the pain of the present by your vision of the future. Either that or we are continually stuck in the moment...

 

[Angelight]

i love it.

 

[Jungle Bunny]

"For I will not let it affect my future anymore. Show me inclination. Test my energetic
level of happiness. Draw fourth, the perception
of touch." Now this is original material. "Show me inclination", a phrase that leaves me wanting more... it's so taunting. Bravo!
[ 19 September 2002: Message edited by: Jungle Bunny ]