Hello everyone, I am 30 years old and in the last 7 years of my life I have been doing tons of drugs, mostly pharmaceuticals like:
I used to have a good job, but I quit because drug induced rage and not thinking clearly; shortly after that I got another good job, but I also quit because I wanted my fix everyday. I have been jobless since 2013 until some weeks ago. Last year I forcefully became independent, began living alone, and began to support myself; I was able to cut almost all physical and psychological addictions, opioids, DXM and LSD being the easiest, but I was in a very dark situation, would not leave my apartment except to buy food, and in half year of depression of solitude, I only was on benzos and nootropics; it took me another 5 months, to be able to function and get a job. A computer related job.
The reason I'm writing this is because I thought for years that I would simply choose to die before quitting drugs, it was my way of life, I could not sleep without downers, I could not function without uppers, I could not be happy without tripping; in my case it was necessary to hit rock bottom to experience that a balanced and wise life is also worth living for.
I can say that now I'm back with my small family, I appreciate having a routine both for work and recreation, and I am very slowly getting back the trust and economic power I used to have before I got addicted.
Do I still do some drugs? yes, I do. I have been medically prescribed 1mg of Clonazepam every night and I do some Diphenhydramine once a week just because music sounds too awesome on it; aside that, I'm starting to live a healthy live, eating good food (meat, fruits, fish, corn, milk, etc.), with some exercise.
- Benzos (Clonazepam, Alprazolam, IV Diazepam)
- Opioids (Tramadol, Codeine)
- Nootropics (Modafinil)
- Anticonvulsives (Pregabalin, Gabapentin)
I used to have a good job, but I quit because drug induced rage and not thinking clearly; shortly after that I got another good job, but I also quit because I wanted my fix everyday. I have been jobless since 2013 until some weeks ago. Last year I forcefully became independent, began living alone, and began to support myself; I was able to cut almost all physical and psychological addictions, opioids, DXM and LSD being the easiest, but I was in a very dark situation, would not leave my apartment except to buy food, and in half year of depression of solitude, I only was on benzos and nootropics; it took me another 5 months, to be able to function and get a job. A computer related job.
The reason I'm writing this is because I thought for years that I would simply choose to die before quitting drugs, it was my way of life, I could not sleep without downers, I could not function without uppers, I could not be happy without tripping; in my case it was necessary to hit rock bottom to experience that a balanced and wise life is also worth living for.
I can say that now I'm back with my small family, I appreciate having a routine both for work and recreation, and I am very slowly getting back the trust and economic power I used to have before I got addicted.
Do I still do some drugs? yes, I do. I have been medically prescribed 1mg of Clonazepam every night and I do some Diphenhydramine once a week just because music sounds too awesome on it; aside that, I'm starting to live a healthy live, eating good food (meat, fruits, fish, corn, milk, etc.), with some exercise.
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