TDS Suboxone withdrawl questions..!! Need help.

[NeckHudson]

Hey,
To make a long story short I had a good sized heroin habit for the last few years. the majority of which took place last may to this april. the last 6 months or so I was up to a gram a day smoked.. only having banged on occasion which is weird I know. I went to an in patient rehab as I didn't want to progress any further, I quit my job while ripped and went to rehab. well I sober up thought It was a dumb ass idea so I got out and wwent straight back to it on a gram a day again. then I got on suboxone and have been taking about 2 mg a day for over a month and I just blew my last 2 mg.. so im naturally scared im gonna withdrawal.

in anyones experience am I in for it? or will I be cool. I have a brand new job making good monety. I acquired while on subs .. I am over h. but I just gotta power through this shit. I have no time to spare being sick, but a large amount of resources to acquire certain things to help me on my journey... so to speak. should I peep the scene for any extra subs? I have gone every other day with only a 1 mg.. even down to a 0.5 while experimenting. but it is fuckin lame anxiety man.

i am not a bad person and am very good at what i do. i recognize my potential but i hate having to worry about this sickness. any advise would be appreciated.
also i cant use anything like benzos or anything. random testing ten panel.

 

[neversickanymore]

Hey Neck.. had a good friend that we all called neck.. yep you are going to withdraw but you can do this no really you can do this.. when was your last dose and what were your doses for the 73 hours before that.. take a deep breath.. you can do this and often times the severity of withdrawal, strangely is determined by how you anticipate it to be, not that you can say man I have nothing to worry about and it will come true, but as with so many things in life the way you think they will be is the way they tend to turn out.. this will be a little uncomfortable, but it passes, yep its not permanent and in a few days you will find yourself walking out of that place into the chance for a restart.. yepo a whole new life.. just relax, accept its going to be a little ruff, not nearly as bad as you think.. LETS DO THIS RITE!! YOU ARE ONLY A FEW HOURS FROM FREEDOM

i am thankful that i am clean and living life without the weight of the world chained to my neck. I am thankful for my friends and family that stuck it out with me. I am thankful that i don't wake up sick every day. And that i can actually get my dope ass watch out of pawn, among other things. I am thankful for a really good friend of mine giving me a job opportunity to get my career back on track in the healthcare field. I am thankful i can just live, go out with friends have a drink instead of the old hustle, score, fix, repeat hamster wheel lifestyle i was living.

.. Stick with the positive.. Negative never (Ever~~~~Ever) does you any good

 

[NeckHudson]

I took approx. 2 mg today they are orange pills so Its hard to perfectly judge it. then I took 2 mg day before yesterday. it still gives me a sorta faded feeling so I think I coulda got by off 1 mg easily. as I tested that before. the anxiety scares the hell out of me.

 

[NeckHudson]

this is day 21 with no black though greatest feeling in a few years.

 

[neversickanymore]

. the anxiety scares the hell out of me.

Anxiety is a form of fear.. take a deep breath and accept the fact that your are going to feel a little ruff for a bit and you are ok with that as at the end there is freedom


half life of bupe is between twenty four and 42 hours.. yeah its a little long so you will be in the woods for awhile.. no big thing, I mean a heroic acomplishment when you walk out, but something you can do.. so depending on your half life and I will work it out for the whole range..

typically you can find out how long a drug will be in your system in a degree to make any difference by multiplying the half life by about five.. so five times 24 is five days and the other is about ten days.. down side to maintenance on bupe and methadone is the incredibly long half lives.. and then you add a few, i always add about three and a half on to the end for the initial miracle to happen.. but on the positive, since it has such a long half life you wont really get that sick for days, and then you will be half way through.. dont panic.. you can do this.. I came of a huge habit and never skipped an gear, stayed in first for a bit, but kept truckin, cause who want to sit around and think about how the feel sick.. advice one, dont sit around, keep rolling.. how is this all sitting with you.. remember its not going to be as bad as you are imagining

congrats on getting off the H!!! major step.. time for the next one rite... freedom!

 

[NeckHudson]

i cant reply pm for 180 minutes lol strange. i have a whole bottle of clonidine from in rehab. the kick was terrible. i got probably 30 left. 7 robaxin, 20 Neurontin, motrin, vistaril for sleep. buspar for anxiety. does buspar help. i had zero faith in these meds before because as far as i were concerned if it wasn't a narc or a benzo it wasn't going to work.

 

[neversickanymore]

clonidine is a god send, or at least it was for me.. try it with out and then with.. makes it a whole lot better, NOT good but better LOL.. wrote down a list of all the good things about getting sober and keep it with you.. it will help.. what are you going to do different this time to STAY clean once you have kicked as thats the hard part?

 

[NeckHudson]

well NA doesn't work for me. i don't like the idea of picking up another obsession. not that it doesn't work for others, just not my cup of tea. I am going to focus on my career. go back to school for another degree, and work as much as possible. my last job was dead end no drug screen and night shift alone... perfect junky dream. this one is fast paced, heavily monitored and always staffed with multiple team members. i don't keep in contact with any using people. they are all good people and i wish them the best but they are not in my best interest at this point. also do you have any idea what the detection period for suboxone is. not that everyone even tests for it but i have that paranoid personality and would like some piece of mind. and if you don't mind me asking what is your story? how long have you stayed clean? what helped you? what kind of habit did you have.