Hi evreyone , it’s bin a while since I started a thread. So I have a bit of a dilemma . I hope this will not be against the rules because it involves drugs and Lying. So I was just clean for over a month (cold turkeyd) evreything but pot so no Xanax and no heroine . Eventho I shouldn’t care but when my family accuses me of being high when I’m sober it drives me nuts and causes me to relapse . So I decided that I will get the vivitrol (implanted naloxne injection )shot .
I did the screening last week for a study at Columbia university and I had to be actively using. so I took that as a get high as much as I want till I get the call back to see if I was accepted to the study . I got the call back on Friday which was not expected because I called on Thursday and they said they will call next week because they are waiting for more blood work results . They wanted me to come today which I couldn’t because for me it’s a holiday so I scheduled it for tomorrow at 11am.
That’s where the issue arises . I have 0 self control and 0 discipline . They asked me to come sick because is assuming they want me to dose indeint if them . It’s probably more for seeing how my body reacts to it then them worrying if I’m actually taking the suboxone . I’m not sure how long they plan on giving that but I’m assuming 4 to 7 days and then you need to have 10 complete no opiate of any kind days and friends you get the shot . So yea I’ve bin using up u till now which is 6:10 pm and my appt is at 11am .
I can’t chance messing with them and not getting accepted to the study . That shot costs $1500 minimum a month so that’s a lot of money saved . Also my father had bin begging me for years to please go and I’ve bin putting it off . I did rapid detox over 10 years ago and I remember hating to take the naltrexone pills after the “treatment” . I fucking felt so bad when I came to it’s indescribable. Forget the fact that it cost a lot of money it was the biggest mistake of my life . I feel like I never truly recovered from that shock to my body .
Sorry I’m all over the place I am pretty high at this moment . So here’s my borderline not sure if I’m breaking the rules against cheating drug tests by asking if worse case scenario and I have to dose in front of them can I just swallow whatever they give me and take my chances with the low oral BA? Or should I just came up with an excuse . Again I prefer not the excuse option because I don’t wanna chance not being accepted . I’m sure there’s no shortage of candidates . So I’m thinking if I stop now and get good sleep then I can possibly be good to take the sub at 11am . If I’m borderline then maybe I can swallow the sub and only get %10 or whatever it is BA and that should help curb PW . It would be the same dose as the Burmese method of induction. Not sure if that’s correct spelling .
So what do you guys suggest?
I did the screening last week for a study at Columbia university and I had to be actively using. so I took that as a get high as much as I want till I get the call back to see if I was accepted to the study . I got the call back on Friday which was not expected because I called on Thursday and they said they will call next week because they are waiting for more blood work results . They wanted me to come today which I couldn’t because for me it’s a holiday so I scheduled it for tomorrow at 11am.
That’s where the issue arises . I have 0 self control and 0 discipline . They asked me to come sick because is assuming they want me to dose indeint if them . It’s probably more for seeing how my body reacts to it then them worrying if I’m actually taking the suboxone . I’m not sure how long they plan on giving that but I’m assuming 4 to 7 days and then you need to have 10 complete no opiate of any kind days and friends you get the shot . So yea I’ve bin using up u till now which is 6:10 pm and my appt is at 11am .
I can’t chance messing with them and not getting accepted to the study . That shot costs $1500 minimum a month so that’s a lot of money saved . Also my father had bin begging me for years to please go and I’ve bin putting it off . I did rapid detox over 10 years ago and I remember hating to take the naltrexone pills after the “treatment” . I fucking felt so bad when I came to it’s indescribable. Forget the fact that it cost a lot of money it was the biggest mistake of my life . I feel like I never truly recovered from that shock to my body .
Sorry I’m all over the place I am pretty high at this moment . So here’s my borderline not sure if I’m breaking the rules against cheating drug tests by asking if worse case scenario and I have to dose in front of them can I just swallow whatever they give me and take my chances with the low oral BA? Or should I just came up with an excuse . Again I prefer not the excuse option because I don’t wanna chance not being accepted . I’m sure there’s no shortage of candidates . So I’m thinking if I stop now and get good sleep then I can possibly be good to take the sub at 11am . If I’m borderline then maybe I can swallow the sub and only get %10 or whatever it is BA and that should help curb PW . It would be the same dose as the Burmese method of induction. Not sure if that’s correct spelling .
So what do you guys suggest?
