I am new to a sub program. I have been on it 3 weeks. I have had 4 heroin addictions in 7 years and 4 rehabs. it has ruined my life. I have not moved forward due to my addiction. so I decided enough is enough and got a sub doctor. I have to go to group 4 times a week as part of this treatment.
I have been soooo much better since I started. I feel great. however, I just failed a test, actually 2 tests, one from the doc and one from the treatment center. my therapist told me the doctor seemed understanding. I see him again next week. I am SOOOO scared. I am afraid I will be cut off, which will send me into WD and it will KILL me since I can't live on heroin anymore. I will seriously hang myself.
I think she told met that to calm me down. but she knows I am genuine about treatment, I put myself there, I was not ordered there. I WANT sobriety and to move on and I FEEL the best I have felt on the suboxone than I have in 7 years.
anyone have advice?
I have been soooo much better since I started. I feel great. however, I just failed a test, actually 2 tests, one from the doc and one from the treatment center. my therapist told me the doctor seemed understanding. I see him again next week. I am SOOOO scared. I am afraid I will be cut off, which will send me into WD and it will KILL me since I can't live on heroin anymore. I will seriously hang myself.
I think she told met that to calm me down. but she knows I am genuine about treatment, I put myself there, I was not ordered there. I WANT sobriety and to move on and I FEEL the best I have felt on the suboxone than I have in 7 years.
anyone have advice?