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Suboxone Dilemma - MERGED

yeah it does, one of the most painful things out there... you dont want to start this shite over again once it done

you wont have to worry about getting popped for it, o/ding, paying for it, finding it, that feeling of running out which you wont have to worry about again now either, the worry of family and friends, and a bunch of other stuff that will be placed into your life.

its yours to live now, you dont have to live for it...
 
UP your sub dose. I'm a firm believer in never using a whole suboxone [8mg] ever... UNLESS it's that first day of sickness. Now I bet you'll want to take the sub like less than a full day of sickness ... ideally If I wait 24 full hours, then dose my sub, the small amount works wonders and the comparison of full blown w/d to the sanity of bupe... feels great.

we all wanna take it at even the first sniffles of w/d. you're just not gonna feel right/100% on it yet. like say it's only been 6-12 /14hours.
So as long as you were in withdrawals, one full sub pill [taken over the course of the day, i break it into 3] works after a hefty dope binge. My binges are no joke. I go straight from being off dope and sub to a bundle a day in one day nodding my life away. I get nervous the bupe wont work right away and yeah it doesn't because it's not full agonist, and honestly.... nothing is perfect. You HAVE to be feeling ok enough though compared to what you could be feeling like.

I just wanted to emphasize that raising your dose will do wonders. It doesn't have any change in effect if I am on sub maintainence and try to take 2mgs more a day... in fact I just feel disgusting. But whne I do that the first one or two days off the dope, I truly feel the effects of the like, idk, big hug suboxone gives ya after enduring some w/d.

you don't need benzos [from my guess, i am not your doc i know]. they don't seem to be helping you at all. They're creating more anxiety for you, and bupe should work just fine by itself.
 
yeah this was the top thread at the moment when I was on TDS lol and i saw your second one after I wrote this whole answer.I am sorry about that :(
 
Is it your car?

You can probably get away with it if she did call the cops if you deny, deny, deny. I've been in this situation before too.

Actually fuck it I'll PM you.
 
What's happening jake? Where're u at ?
I'm just through 2 days of withdrawing too and I know it's fucking hell. It ends, but before it ends and while it's happening every minute is like an hour. And it's an hour of pure agony. Full-on h withdrawal is possibly one of the hardest things you'll have ever do, but any ex addict will tell you- when you first start to feel clear again, you realise that this hell was actually worth it.
Are you still doing it?
 
i did dope like a week , then took subs 2 days , then dope one day , now today just a crumb of sub since i lost the rest of it .........and have one crumb left......and benzos which ive been binging on week and a half
 
Think you'll make it through?
Stick at it boy, reeeeaaally it gets better. Harder in other ways, but when that stuff finally leaves your body you realise you can actually do it. You spend the whole time thinking you can't cant can't do it, but you can.

Also, I think ditch the benzo binges. I know anything that helps is irresistable, but try hard not to overdo it like you have been. Cut off clean and free and things are easier in lots of ways. Imagine not being dependent on anything...
 
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jake99 said:
well today is day 3 off diesel................1st day took 3 mg sub then tody took 2mg sub as well as lot of benzos...............im hanging in there but still feelin crappy...............i dont wanna trade opiate addiction for benzo addiction so im gettin rid of some of both benzo and sub since i know if i have it im gonna wanna take it..............
really been buggin most about how i was on dope and xanax and walked outta supermarket without even paying for shit........somehow no one noticed and i was even so worried i called courts couple days later to make sure no warrants got put out...............
man if anyone has anyone encouraging words i could use them............
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Good for you. I'm glad that you're putting yourself back in control. I don't have any personal experience with opiates, but I almost got addicted to benzos. I took some 3 times and found myself craving more, even after it made me suicidal. They're dangerous drugs, and it's good that you're getting away from them.

All I can say is that it will get better, even if it takes a while. Stay strong, and think of something worth keeping off the drugs for. Like if you have any kids, your family or even your health.
 
update on my f'd up life

so i crashed my car nodding off at the wheel
now i think im gonna be reported for leaving scene since i pulled over and couldnt find the lady that i rear ended

this was 4 days ago
im thinking cops will show up at my house any day now

i called the courts of township it happened in , they ran my license number , and nothing showed up ..............would they even have a ticket on me if cops had reported it


WHy havent i heard anything ?

everyone i talk to says file a police report but then i look guilty if she already turned one in first .................
 
Jake,

Did this happen while you were leaving the store you stole the food out of?
 
lol
you goose

you're lucky if it hasn't been reported

most likely you'll get a letter from her insurer telling you to pay up!
gonna have to save some of that dope money aside.... :)
 
well you're lucky you hit a car, and not a human being.

FFS.

not much you can do besides to sit, wait, and stop DRIVING WHEN HIGH.
 
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