THE_REAL_OBLIVION
Bluelight Crew
3-4 months ago one of the ORT doctor had me take a liver enzyme blood test since they're discovering that long term use of suboxone is a bad idea, it's more made for 3 month detox. Came out normal, many people, mostly girls were telling me they were in extreme pain from their liver or pancreas swelling up because of bupe which was confirmed at the ER.
This morning I picked up my weekly allowance of bupe and had my dose for today in front of the pharmacist as usual and went home with the rest. Just as I got the car in the garage, I started getting razorblade pain inside my upper left quadrant, it was intolerable, it felt like when it's been too long I went without Prevacid or Nexium, so I had a Nexium with a large glass of water. It took care of the pain and bloating about 1/2. It literally felt like when I had gotten sick from drinking too much back when I was young, so I lied on my right side and the pain was more bearable this way. I woke up up 3h30 later and it's still going, although it's tolerable, even had one of my gf's swiss rolls with a glass of milk and things went down and I only felt its "presence". Thing is I didn't have my normal dose of bupe, I spit out what was in my mouth after driving home from the pharmacy (which isn't enough time, maybe had it for 10 minutes), but I'm scared shitless of taking even just a 2mg tablet more to compensate for what i spit out, supposed to take 12mg a day, I usually take random doses until I'm well since I got all my privileges, and those doses can vary, I really feel like I need a little more but I don't want to taste fate.
I can't help but think it was all the mountain dew, seroquel (25mg for sleep ones, they still cause me stomach upset sometimes, but nothing like that usually) and a shitload of gummy bears (not the Harribo Sugarless ones heh, so that aint it) I had during the night waiting to get my bupe, also swallowed 3 pieces of Trident Splash pieces of gum and I never really have gum, stopped smoking months ago, vaping instead.
I've taken some of my million laxatives I have here since being on methadone/suboxone, had 4 8,6mg sessonides and a couple 200mg colace, I know that ain't much, bisacodyl tablets are not paid for by the government and damnit its the thing that works best, works even better than PegLyte, I had the laxatives in a cover-all-bases kind of way in case I'm just really bloated from classic opiate constipation.
What should I do, take just 2mg more? (remember it was 12mg that had me feel like my liver was going to explode(as I am saying that I'm having strikes of semi-pain/gas moving around in my torso)) or just endure the ride today with what I had, I already had more xanax than I should because I didn't get to have my favourite day of the week to go the way it should. Been 15 months on bupe now, I think I'll go back on methadone, at least the methadone side effects are easy to manage, slam myself with testosterone and take anti-estrogen (anastrazole) and I am fine then, no blood tests, no specialists (so fuckin sick of having seen so many specialists in my still kinda young life).
I kinda answered myself right now I think, but I can't be sure it's only the bupe or the bupe + other circumstances I've listed here that caused me to lie down all morning and call in sick.
This morning I picked up my weekly allowance of bupe and had my dose for today in front of the pharmacist as usual and went home with the rest. Just as I got the car in the garage, I started getting razorblade pain inside my upper left quadrant, it was intolerable, it felt like when it's been too long I went without Prevacid or Nexium, so I had a Nexium with a large glass of water. It took care of the pain and bloating about 1/2. It literally felt like when I had gotten sick from drinking too much back when I was young, so I lied on my right side and the pain was more bearable this way. I woke up up 3h30 later and it's still going, although it's tolerable, even had one of my gf's swiss rolls with a glass of milk and things went down and I only felt its "presence". Thing is I didn't have my normal dose of bupe, I spit out what was in my mouth after driving home from the pharmacy (which isn't enough time, maybe had it for 10 minutes), but I'm scared shitless of taking even just a 2mg tablet more to compensate for what i spit out, supposed to take 12mg a day, I usually take random doses until I'm well since I got all my privileges, and those doses can vary, I really feel like I need a little more but I don't want to taste fate.
I can't help but think it was all the mountain dew, seroquel (25mg for sleep ones, they still cause me stomach upset sometimes, but nothing like that usually) and a shitload of gummy bears (not the Harribo Sugarless ones heh, so that aint it) I had during the night waiting to get my bupe, also swallowed 3 pieces of Trident Splash pieces of gum and I never really have gum, stopped smoking months ago, vaping instead.
I've taken some of my million laxatives I have here since being on methadone/suboxone, had 4 8,6mg sessonides and a couple 200mg colace, I know that ain't much, bisacodyl tablets are not paid for by the government and damnit its the thing that works best, works even better than PegLyte, I had the laxatives in a cover-all-bases kind of way in case I'm just really bloated from classic opiate constipation.
What should I do, take just 2mg more? (remember it was 12mg that had me feel like my liver was going to explode(as I am saying that I'm having strikes of semi-pain/gas moving around in my torso)) or just endure the ride today with what I had, I already had more xanax than I should because I didn't get to have my favourite day of the week to go the way it should. Been 15 months on bupe now, I think I'll go back on methadone, at least the methadone side effects are easy to manage, slam myself with testosterone and take anti-estrogen (anastrazole) and I am fine then, no blood tests, no specialists (so fuckin sick of having seen so many specialists in my still kinda young life).
I kinda answered myself right now I think, but I can't be sure it's only the bupe or the bupe + other circumstances I've listed here that caused me to lie down all morning and call in sick.
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