That's good! ^ glad you have made it to 19 days, congrats Ark9. You have more will power than me, I couldn't do it! I have done it before, but not trying to quit them, just because I ran out too soon and had none left, and the pharm wouldn't fill my script... it was some of the worst withdrawls possible, and I had to work whilst in those withdrawls.. it was pure hell! I was a server, and I had a super busy day the one day I went to work feeling like total shit, like 3 days into the WD.. Wasn't easy, I tried to find something to get me through but couldn't.. the other time I had to kick sub, it was in jail, and that REALLLLY sucked! BIG TIME! Kicking both subs and klonopin in jail, I was only there for like 2 and a half days before I was released, but boy were those 3 days THE WORST 3 days of my life! Coming down off a giant a-pvp binge(which is something akin to coming down of meth, from what I here) while in WD from benzos and subs, the 3rd day, before I left later that day, they saw how fucked I looked, from WDing and saw me throwing up, and just sick as shit, and even this total bitch of a nurse, showed mercy on me and gave me 3 5mg valium, which didn't really do much, but still it helped.. Then I had to walk 10 miles, and ask people for money like a bum, panhandling for bus fare to get home 20 miles away! Pure fucking hell... And I was dehydrated, with temperatures in the 90s and humid as fuck, I literally was so thirsty I asked this girl at the bus stop who I had no idea who she was, if I could have some of her drink, and she said "HELL NAW CRACKA YOU THOWED!" lol, I was about to pass out, sick as shit, walked for 10 fucking miles because I had no ride home.. worst day ever. But when I FINALLY got home, it was like I was in heaven, with plenty of my meds, and my way out of those hellish withdrawls... Seriously.. good for you! I feel hopelessly dependent on subutex, I have been on maintenance for like 4-5 years off and on, relapsing a few times, and haven't touched dope or oxy, in like a year and a week exactly.. but still I am a prescription pill addict, and I know I could never easily get thru life, without subs and if not subs, than actual opiates/opioids, my brain is totally re-wired to think like that, because of how much dope/pharms and subs I have taken for so long.. I am past the point of just saying fuck it and quitting.. it sucks, but it could be worse.. I look at it like, at least I am not shooting dope, I am just doing subs instead, the obvious better choice... but the worsed to get off of! Hope all goes well for you from here on out ark9, your story was inspiring.. shows that people can quit subs without going back to dope, if they aren't too far gone like me.