As time goes on, memories once thought long buried resurface.
I think my brain has been able to process the shit of recent times and repair itself now that its had a break from drugs but now old old hang ups are around.
About my marriage, my life as a married woman at home in Perth where all her family and friends were. I had my close girlfriends right there, my mum, my home with 2 parrots and Nathan. Also his druggie friends. Also the constant struggle between responsibility and fun.
I cant think about those years without regret. So I try to not go there but my head is trying to get past it.
I cant make the same relationship pattern with my boyfriend now. But its what seems normal. It isnt.
I love him. And he makes me tingle when he smiles. I hope I am going to keep on track and not let my past kill my future.
I think my brain has been able to process the shit of recent times and repair itself now that its had a break from drugs but now old old hang ups are around.
About my marriage, my life as a married woman at home in Perth where all her family and friends were. I had my close girlfriends right there, my mum, my home with 2 parrots and Nathan. Also his druggie friends. Also the constant struggle between responsibility and fun.
I cant think about those years without regret. So I try to not go there but my head is trying to get past it.
I cant make the same relationship pattern with my boyfriend now. But its what seems normal. It isnt.
I love him. And he makes me tingle when he smiles. I hope I am going to keep on track and not let my past kill my future.