I feel like that word is awfully demeaning isn't it? "Recovery" that is.
it makes me feel like I lost all of my learned skills and am re-learning how to do anything in life.
and people look at you as somehow being lesser than, despite the fact that it's usually the other way around
you hear shit like "get healthy again" or "get your mind straightened out" or "get back in the swing of things" like I'm some fucking science experiment who has to take baby steps in order to be able to go anywhere in life.
like wtf? And people don't trust you anymore. My brother doesn't want to smoke weed with me because he thinks it might make me do heroin
and I feel like I get a fucking audit from people who know my past every time I interact with them. I can tell they're like trying to see if I'm fucked up or not.
last time I checked, I'm still pretty fucking good at my job. Last time I checked, I still treat everyone respectfully and politely. Last time I checked, I don't get involved in someone else's business unless they ask me to
but, apparently, you shoot a couple bags of dope in your arm and suddenly people don't care about any of those truths anymore. They just assume I am incapable of doing anything while on drugs and just need to "figure things out"
oh, I think I got things figured out quite well actually. I like to get high. I just can't realistically chase certain highs anymore. But I still am damn straight going to use lower forms of intoxication. Because, in my opinion, I earn the right to.
im just tired of dealing with people who don't understand that drug usage does not equate to automatic failure
but when you are labeled as a failure by some people solely for using drugs, well I guess that kind of settles it in their mind
The way I see it, unless I did something to negatively affect your life, what drugs I used are none of your fucking business.
it makes me feel like I lost all of my learned skills and am re-learning how to do anything in life.
and people look at you as somehow being lesser than, despite the fact that it's usually the other way around
you hear shit like "get healthy again" or "get your mind straightened out" or "get back in the swing of things" like I'm some fucking science experiment who has to take baby steps in order to be able to go anywhere in life.
like wtf? And people don't trust you anymore. My brother doesn't want to smoke weed with me because he thinks it might make me do heroin
and I feel like I get a fucking audit from people who know my past every time I interact with them. I can tell they're like trying to see if I'm fucked up or not.
last time I checked, I'm still pretty fucking good at my job. Last time I checked, I still treat everyone respectfully and politely. Last time I checked, I don't get involved in someone else's business unless they ask me to
but, apparently, you shoot a couple bags of dope in your arm and suddenly people don't care about any of those truths anymore. They just assume I am incapable of doing anything while on drugs and just need to "figure things out"
oh, I think I got things figured out quite well actually. I like to get high. I just can't realistically chase certain highs anymore. But I still am damn straight going to use lower forms of intoxication. Because, in my opinion, I earn the right to.
im just tired of dealing with people who don't understand that drug usage does not equate to automatic failure
but when you are labeled as a failure by some people solely for using drugs, well I guess that kind of settles it in their mind
The way I see it, unless I did something to negatively affect your life, what drugs I used are none of your fucking business.