xxsicknessxx
Bluelighter
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- Jun 26, 2008
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Thanks for the info. I have on my own managed in one week to cut back from 3 packs of smokes a day to 1. From 6-8 energy drinks a day to 2-3. I cut out all salt i my diet and all coffee. I am proud of my self for this. I am still stuck snorting however. I have managed to take it like normal a few days but I find my self in the same place every day.
I get my 2 pills. I look at them. I think how if I break each into 4 I will have 8 lines to snort. 2mg 8lines. 16mg in all. I do one every two hours and I will last all night and have left overs for the next day 2-4mg.
However. I look at the pills and think if I take one whole like normal and then if I crave snorting I won't have enough to last the day. I think how the min. The pill dissolve I will regret it and wish I had saved it to snort. How if I eat it will kill my feeling of well being. Where as I could eat -snort 2mg eat snort 2mg. if i take 8mg then eat I can't just snort more or take more I have to wait...
Its hard to explain but I have such a abnormal fear of not having that pill to snort its amazing. Its like I think I will go through WD with out back ups.. its weird. I know the truth. I snorted 2mg today I feel alright its 1:25pm so im thinking I will save 8mg to take under the tounge and leave the other 6mg to snort if I need it if I can I won't use it at all and just save it.
One way or the other im going to beat this thing and the only way to do that is the way I cut back my smokes. Just do it. Just wait another hour before using more just hold off taking that pill as long as I can. its weird how much I want to take it even knowing I won't get high or anything off it. I don't even feel that much better after I take it. I think this is all in my head
I get my 2 pills. I look at them. I think how if I break each into 4 I will have 8 lines to snort. 2mg 8lines. 16mg in all. I do one every two hours and I will last all night and have left overs for the next day 2-4mg.
However. I look at the pills and think if I take one whole like normal and then if I crave snorting I won't have enough to last the day. I think how the min. The pill dissolve I will regret it and wish I had saved it to snort. How if I eat it will kill my feeling of well being. Where as I could eat -snort 2mg eat snort 2mg. if i take 8mg then eat I can't just snort more or take more I have to wait...
Its hard to explain but I have such a abnormal fear of not having that pill to snort its amazing. Its like I think I will go through WD with out back ups.. its weird. I know the truth. I snorted 2mg today I feel alright its 1:25pm so im thinking I will save 8mg to take under the tounge and leave the other 6mg to snort if I need it if I can I won't use it at all and just save it.
One way or the other im going to beat this thing and the only way to do that is the way I cut back my smokes. Just do it. Just wait another hour before using more just hold off taking that pill as long as I can. its weird how much I want to take it even knowing I won't get high or anything off it. I don't even feel that much better after I take it. I think this is all in my head
