ILikeSub
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Sep 5, 2010
- Messages
- 126
[In regards to being heavily addicted to opiates]
Cold..
Curently detached,I am broken and within its' hold.
Broken and in need of a fix.
No matter how hard I squirm here
And
No matter how hard I scream..
This ache echoes every action and thought.
Every reaction and emotion.
This void cannot be filled by you.
Not by studies,not by doctors,not by words..
Because I only want one thing.
A man made hell with a heavenly mask.
But that is the flipside.
Right now,relief has bein bought.
A fake happiness.
Fool's gold,if you will.
And I absorb it..and it envelopes me,consumes me.
Holds me,hugs me and kisses every part of me.
Then warmth..
My breathing becomes still..
Body motionless and paused.
Over the edge my being dives...
Into a pool of calming serene,madness in disguise.
Cold..
Curently detached,I am broken and within its' hold.
Broken and in need of a fix.
No matter how hard I squirm here
And
No matter how hard I scream..
This ache echoes every action and thought.
Every reaction and emotion.
This void cannot be filled by you.
Not by studies,not by doctors,not by words..
Because I only want one thing.
A man made hell with a heavenly mask.
But that is the flipside.
Right now,relief has bein bought.
A fake happiness.
Fool's gold,if you will.
And I absorb it..and it envelopes me,consumes me.
Holds me,hugs me and kisses every part of me.
Then warmth..
My breathing becomes still..
Body motionless and paused.
Over the edge my being dives...
Into a pool of calming serene,madness in disguise.
