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Mf_Mayhem

Mf_Mayhem

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Hey everyone, just needing to vent. I am coming off Kratom right now, and I am at about 50 hours since my last dose. I felt really positive and tolerable up until about a couple hours ago. The cravings are hitting, and I just want these leg cramps to go away. The sad thing is that the physical side of it is not even that bad. Mentally is definitely the obstacle of this, and the anxiety. I've tried talking to loved ones about my predicament, and they are just telling me shit that I already know and don't want to hear right now. I know this feeling isn't final, but dammit it feels like eternity when I'm stuck in the middle of it.

Feeling irritable, restless, and discontent. I already feel my brain scheming of how I can get some relief, and how I can justify it. I'm not going to do it but my brain is messed up. It's all so messed up. Tired of being an addict.
 
If you're ok physically then get up and out when this sort of thing starts to hit. Go for a walk, watch a film, read a book, do some exercise...just change your environment. Sometimes it can be as simple as that, just needing to find something else to focus on to snap you out of it. Of course it's not always that easy but applying the 'nothing changes unless you make a change' cliche on a micro scale like that can be really useful.
 
Definitely stay the course and do not go back. Move forward and time is the best healing we have. I also agree with the above poster, now that you've been addicted to kratom you have a valuable insight that hopefully you use to your advantage and don't move up to any stronger opiods. bc the withdrawal and mental anguish from long term h addiction is soul crushing. YOU CAN do this! Get out of your normal routine, distract yourself. Before you know it you can look back and be proud of yourself for overcoming your addiction. Believe me, while it is the hardest thing I've ever done I look back and feel grateful I came out the other side alive. You got this! I believe in you, now just have faith in yourself and you will overcome this.
 
i've been there before... over 7 years abusing kratom plus 3 more years abusing poppies

quitted a few times. Always a hell of a ride. Depression, fatigue, anxiety were all there, uninvited. But what really defines, to me, kratom withdrawal, is *restlessness*
restless legs, sure, but that just the most obvious expression of a deeper, more general and encompassing restlessness that covered my whole being, while i was withdrawing.

How did i managed to scape the cycle of miserability and addiction...? Well, most of the advise regarding how to quit opiates that we can find here tends to be quite sound: exercise, exercise, good diet, exercise, good habits, good relationships and exercise too. That's all very good and essential to recover.
But that's not what made me turn the corner. To me, it was a supplement called *mucuna pruriens*. Mucuna pruriens are a type of beans that contain L-dopa and other ingredients. It is considered to be the best supplement to increase dopamine levels in our brain. It is also considered the best remedy against restless legs. Restless legs, and restlessness in general, is considered to be a result of bad dopamine function in our brains. Mucuna pruriens, aka velvet beans, are supposed to re-establish dopamine to healthy levels.

I took a bean a day for a week. Then i felt much better. Most of my restlessness gone, and the fatigue gone, substituted by enthusiasm, motivation and a nice zest for life

it happened to me a few weeks ago, after over 10 years of kratom and poppies abuse. But these beans do not seem to be as popular as they ought to be among addicts. Addicts usually have chronic low dopamine levels, and that's why they feel anxious, restless, fatigued, unmotivated, etc etc.
...and that's why i keep repeating myself on these forums trying to get the message to all interested parties

Information about these mucuna pruriens beans: http://www.examiner.com/article/mucuna-pruriens-why-this-herb-can-supercharge-your-life

Also, if you believe to be ready to quit opiates for good, you ought to have a look to *Iboga*. research and read as much as you can (it can be dangerous) I opted for a microdose regime of iboga, and to me, it works as it says on the tin.
 
It might not help but you are fucking 5 0 hours in man. Thats amazing and your doing awesome. You need one final countdown . 50 more hours and you will have improved tenfold trust me. Your peaking right now and i know its terrible. But in another 50 side effects will subside and you'll continue the mental war. Just take it a minute at a time. I know you dont see it but you are so very close. Keep going
 
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