Dyckey
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- Nov 24, 2013
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I'm an army veteran and I'm on probation in something called veterans court. I take random drug test twice a week and the court gets to read all my veterans hospital mental health records appointments meds etc. So basically I cant do shit except for what my VA mental health doctor prescribes. I very been seriously struggling with depression for a long time now. I've been clean off for 2 years now. My doc are opiates, alcohol, and coke. I cant sleep at night. I sleep when the sun comes up and I dont really get up till it's about to go down. This has wreaked havoc on my life. I've been making it to work 2 to 3 times a week and only reason I have a job is cuz my boss knows I'm struggling and trying. I've been on lexapro, wellbutrin, seroquel, hydroxide, and others that the VA prescribes. I've been to my psychiatrist crying asking for help even crying. I'm really trying to stay sober but the emptiness I feel is overwhelming. I've asked for actual sleep meds like lunesta or ambien cuz I tooke them years ago prescribed by a civilian dr and the they worked. Since I'm labeled an addict with the VA he wont prescribe me anything that seems to work for me. I've asked him to let me try ECT and he says that he doeant think I need that. Idk what else to do. The only days I make it to work are when I sat up all night and drink a ahit load of caffeine and stay up all day but that feels like shit. Any advice is appreciated