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Struggle to find balance in life

drdmike

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I think I work too much because by the time I get to the weekend, I binge on both drugs and food. During the week, everything is about work (work 3 pt jobs), gym (4 days a week) and school (grad school once a week) so I am very productive. I just don't know how to relax. The only time when I am relaxed is when I am high and alone. For example, I took some pain killers and nodded off. I felt chill and even better when the high wore off. I guess there is a part of me that feels like that I can get a lot of done and if I don't, then I am 'slacking' off.
 
I'm the same way. I quit my job (or reduced my hours and got a government loan) and got a hobby.
 
Even just one day of yoga a week will help you tremendously in finding balance, naturally and harmoniously. And since it's proven to be extremely healthful even (and especially) by science's stubborn and anachronistic standards, it will fit right into your so called productive mindstate.
 
Being that productive is really great. If I were you, I would quit one of these jobs and focus more on education. Higher education = higher salary. So once you complete your education, you'll only need one job to make as much as you are making now from 3 jobs. I hope that makes sense.
 
I actually don't mind being busy, because being busy means I can stay away from drugs and be productive as per flyhighk mentioned. You can still relax by having a selfie time but avoid drugs as much as possible and maybe find a hobby? Yoga/meditation is a good way for relaxation so if you haven't tried these please consider them.
 
By the end of May, I will only be working sporadically and won't have school. That is why I tell myself to keep on pushing because I only have less than 4 months. It's getting through those 4 months that's a struggle. It's like struggling to finish a workout at the gym. I kinda have a hobby- comic books. I started to get back into comics for nostalgic reasons.
 
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