TDS Strange Vibrations/Oscillations - Please Help Me

[Drench]

Hi guys, I'm Drench - I have beaten the 2 worst addictions (You can guess, one ended in 'pine' and the other 'done' and 1 other just as bad (Lyrica).

I am in Britain and I don't have many friends, I am seeking work. I have been officially diagnosed with Severe Depression and Severe Anxiety, I feel that I also have Generalised Anxiety Disorder/Social Anxiety Disorder and Agoraphobia. Not so many years ago I abused a range of drugs which I feel may contribute to these.

I have been prescribed the SSRI Zoloft (Sertraline) (After a lot of thought, I have heard good and bad things about them). The doctor has me dosed at 100mg in the morning. I supplement that with 10mg BuSpar (Buspirone) and 5mg Melatonin SR, this helps combat some of the worse side effects from the Sertraline and also further helps with the depression and anxiety. (Google 'Buspar Melatonin' for more info.)

I am also tapering from legal Benzodiazepines...not easy or nice.

I've been taking the Zoloft for approximately 2 months and just 3 weeks ago I felt superb, like a new man. I really thought they were working! Then some strange things have been going on in the only safe place I have in the world, my bedroom/house...I now feel LOW, just like before I started the Zoloft.

I smoke Tobacco, drink Alcohol, take the occasional Preg/Gab to let me feel happy, even if it's just for a few hours. My Benzo problem isn't good, not good at all, I will make a separate thread in a different forum seeking advice on that. I do not touch Cannabis due to the associated Paranoia, same thing with stims such as Ethylphenidate etc.

Right, now from what you've read you would probably summerise me as a mentally sound individual going through a rough patch. You would be correct.

This is very hard for me to put into words without sounding like a member of the tin hat brigade (no offense to any tinners lol).

I feel vibrations on the floor of any room of my house (semi-detached), it's not the neighbours, not directly anyway.

I also feel, more disturbingly, oscillations throughout my whole body, often giving me nausea and the runs (no. 2). Again, these can happen in any room in my house.

I also often hear an extremely high pitch sound at the top end of the human hearing spectrum. My old CRT TV used to make this sound...I can't think what it is? CCTV/Mic's in my room?

I am shook and angry at whoever is doing this to me, I am in a quandary. I have questioned my own sanity, there is no dought, I have seen a couple of my friends and they think I'm fine. Doing well in fact, as I've started learning the Electro-Acoustic Guitar to give me something positive to focus on.

The oscillations are bizarre, sometimes they come in slow *whom whom whom* waves which I can clearly physically feel. Other times they are rapid, like a helicopter. Again I can feel these and they are understandably disturbing. I would really like a way to record these, to prove to others and then to take further action.

There is major building work going on near-by but I don't think that is the cause as it happens all times of the day/night. A Police helicopter has passed my house several times, very rare in this quiet part of the UK.

I have called the Police (Any body who knows me would know this was extreme, I'm not too keen on them due to previous experiences.) I did not mention the vibrations/oscillations, which conveniently didn't happen whilst they were in my house (I invited them in, even to my bedroom!). I have had some trouble with local vandals throws stones at my windows and trespassing into my back garden, this is what I reported.

I can't mention this to any authorities, who would take me seriously? NSA? (I'm in the UK)

I have had other strange things going on, people monitoring/following me - this could be paranoia. Unless my parents have employed the whole village to spin me out, the police are doing an undercover op. on me, private eyes have been hired - something crazy sounding, then I can't think what/who it is. Who would have the resources? I am legal, don't deal, don't steal, don't do anything illegal/shady.

Also, my neighbours have been acting strange towards me, like I'm off my head on drugs and about to jump on them (lol). I'm a naturally smiley person and good natured, I will go out of my way to help someone. There have been several cars coming and going that don't live here (I'm in a very small close), this is strange in itself as some of them don't even park. My neighbours have been parking in different places and a big white van owned by a relative of a neighbour is parked opposite my house.

Right now as I'm sitting here typing this the floor is vibrating gently, sometimes getting stronger. It is disturbing me and it is causing me to fall apart inside. I have the feeling that whoever is doing it is setting out to destroy my mind/get me to move away.

I was playing my music too loud for a few weeks until I was made aware, since then I have kept it respectful and wear headphones at night. I keep myself to myself so the only people who could possibly be angry with me are my direct next-door neighbours.

I am not going to do anything stupid, thankfully I am well grounded (no pun intended)!

But I don't know what to do? Carry on ignoring it, occasionally flipping off the walls. Lol Shall I hire my own Private Detective? Monies aren't great but I could afford one for a while.

Anyone who knows anything about this kind of thing please help me, I would appreciate the help/opinions of any members.

I will not put up with this for much longer before taking some kind of legal/PI action. The problem is it's such a hard thing to describe without instantly seeming paranoid/mentally unstable.

I've been looking up things like this -

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ultrasound

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sonic_weapon

It seems way too extreme but I just don't know.

Please help!

 

[T. Calderone]

Did this (the vibrations and high pitched sounds) begin happening recently or since you've been taking these meds? It seems you might be experiencing some paranoia with being suspicious of your neighbors and parents. You really need to speak to your doctor and tell them about these issues.

 

[Mysterie]

i remember when i was withdrawing from benzos, i was researching different things I thought i might have, and was generally a bit paranoid and having weird ideas, along with bodily sensations of pulsation/vibration and going through ketosis i think.

if i were you i would just accept the weird occurences of floor/walls vibrating, body vibrating, and not label it as being bad, just let it be and observe it as a sensation with curiosity.

i think what your experiencing is mostly a result of the withdrawals, which means it should pass in a week - few weeks, or at least get better!

try not to focus on your symptoms, or reading up stuff on the internet about it, try eat healthy, get outside and get some sunshine, do things that make you feel good.

 

[Allein]

I tend to agree with the others here, but please don'r think for a moment that that means I'm belittling these problems or sayikng they are any less distressing.

I live in the UK so you can count 1 friend straight up

I've tapered from very high doses of benzos, it a a horrible thing to work through at id bound to upset various if not ll of your systems.

SSRI can also have some odd effects, I've been on number of ADs I including Sertraline) what I would call tinnitus seemed to be triggered by a few of them, I experienced I very high frequency background noise whioch came and went some time oscillating.

Whilst withdrawing from Venlafaxine I experienced, sudden periods where it sounded like a distortion echo effect was being applied to everything.

I really think you need to try and ride this stuff out and put it down to you body just settling down, it sounds like your starting to build paranoid constructions around some of this stuff, this will make you more anxious and feed the whole thing.

Hope things get better for you soon, check in here and feel freel to PM me if you want to

 

[Drench]

Thank you so much guys, I love Mysterie's message -

if i were you i would just accept the weird occurrences of floor/walls vibrating, body vibrating, and not label it as being bad, just let it be and observe it as a sensation with curiosity.

That's what I've been trying to do, I'm glad you agree it's the correct thing to do.

I never had anything like this before the Zoloft (Sertraline) or BuSpar, maybe if I try leaving out the BuSpar for a week and see what happens. I have messed about with 'research' benzos quite a lot and never experienced anything like this. No other drug has done this to me either, not Pregabalin (Lyrica) or Gabapentin/Baclofen.

I need to stomp on the paranoia otherwise it may give me a breakdown 8(

If it is real I'll try and get on here from an NSA building lol %)

I'll keep y'all updated and a special thanks goes to Allein, a fellow Brit and a kind offer of PMage

 

[Allein]

Yep great words, my apologies I have to admit I was in somewhat of a hurry today, with a multitude of family commitments but the subject interprets me greatly .

The truth is IMHO, mainly for convenience we buy into a reality which is nothing more than a very thin veneer that serves the purpose of allowing day to day living, moving about this world and carry out our normal kinda business.

Even real long established science around particle physics effectively says and has been proven that specific particles may or may not exists from moment to moment and it's not possible to both tell both it position and velocity at the same time. We and everything are made of these particles and its only the fact that its likely enough of them are actually where they should be at any one time that things are able to exist at all.

Add to all that the fact that ultimately your brain has to construct a whole world based on the inputs from your eyes, ears and whatever else it can muster, it;s amazing we manage to retain any kind of stability in much at all.

I've no idea what other peoples perception of it all is like, clearly largely agree enough to interact and function with most people to some extent. I've messed with various drugs over 20+ years so so who knows what effect that's has but I get visual and audible 'oddities' often, nothing scary but weird stuff in periphery vision lots if odd noises, echo, high frequency stuff if's quiet and ocationaly weirder stuff.

I don't let it freak me out any more, the world is a weird place those that don't see that have just dumbed down, but trying to create any narrative or gain understanding from this stuff is the road to paranoia and fear IMO. Just accept it as pat of the rich weirdness of it all :D

 

[dilated_pupils]

I've had this same thing happen before on SSRI's. It seems to be a blood pressure sort of thing (I'm thinking a blood/sugar reaction). The quick change in blood sugar to different parts of the body allow reverberations to occur and thus be felt physically. You could try checking your blood pressure, and moderating it naturally or with medication, stopping your psych meds with the help of a doc/good friend and find an alternative, and/or find some sort of binaural beat that may help to listen to. I used to have these same feelings as you when taking seroquel and I'd lay in bed feeling a sinking/stuck feeling as well. Do not be alarmed if this happens to you, discontinue use - nothing is worth feeling like that honestly. Fortunately you can overcome that feeling and sit up I promise! If you feel unable to do so, try and meditate as you allow yourself to sleep.

If I could swear on a thousand bibles and mean it - I would. I know exactly how you're feeling OP, and I'm coping as best I can. If it makes you feel any better I'd been using IV stims to help cope with the audible ringings. Sometimes knowing I'm causing one (a bell ringer for example) allows me to focus on that rather than the ones produced by electronic pollution. Much hope goes out to you!

-dp

 

[Drench]

d_p, my blood pressure is likely to be too high - I can ask my G.P. to check it next time I visit the surgery, no problem.

Can you tell me any more about binaural beats? I have zero understanding of them.

One thing I have noticed, is that when I'm doing something that raises my heart rate (many "normal" things do this to do as I am of a nervous disposition) is that likely to cause it? I have noticed a possible synchronisity.

My paranoia has subsided almost entirely - although this may be down to the downers...(benny habit, lyrica addiction, baclofen sampler, phenibut muncher (he he). Hopefully I have overcame it naturally though. Now it's just wobbles/floor shaking mostly - still disturbing!

I have been looking for something to brighten up my nights. Lyrica used to. I used ethphendat (SP on purpose) too much. The UK legal high scene seems to have dried up. Let's say theoretically there are no analogue laws, what is out there? UK/Europe/USA. I can't return to cannabinoids.

Thank you for your kind words d_p, I'd avoid anything IV personally. I hope you cope

 

[herbavore]

So good to hear that you are feeling better. In terms of brightening your nights, that is a slippery slope when what you think of for that is automatically a drug. Now that you are feeling more stable what about an activity that would connect you with others but not necessarily be focused on the social part--some interest that you have that you could participate in with others? You are on meds and you already know that you might have a weakness for abuse so why not try to find an alternate path to some excitement in your life?