hey. I started taking dexis about a couple weeks ago. I am taking it to give me unnatural energy. I work non stop. and only rest periodically.. I started with 2 15mg xr and another 5 or 6 hours later.. now im taking 2 every 5 or six hours I am awake.. I sweat profusely but I bought one of those plastic cups with the straws and now drinking a ton of water..
I also take some expensive whole food vitamins to compensate for any nutrients I may be needing??? sounded smart to me.. anyways I feel fine I guess. not high at all. but yesterday I had a really crazy experience. I was planning on finishing up but I had a crazy experience that made me think I might have add or something that I would benefit from..
so. I drove my daughters mother home from work. she was acting like her usually miserable self.. no problem.. get home, I am helping out a friends son by letting him stay in the basement. we break out some weed and my ex goes upstairs upset.. typical..I start to roll and am planning to send her a text to come down and smoke. it becomes an afterthought and me and make start smoking and watching TV.. I'm not noticeably high from the dex but this is the first joint in 2 days.. its nice weed we are impressed and happy to smoke and chill out..
I start to finish the msg to my ex and what was supposed to be a invite turned into 2 hours of me writing and crying. a lot .. I completely lost control.. my brain felt like it was a computer. it was too much sometimes. im not exaggerating. it was fucking crazy!! I embraced it the best I could... I could tell that my brain was working in a way it never did before.. i write most of this shit on my new phone and i started using it more efficiently in minutes.. told mak to do whatever he wanted except take the car, and give me a cigarette and please don't talk to me.. he could see I had been crying and got the idea.. it was hard to control.. as I was writing her I was actually writing this. my brain was making connections I've never experienced.. in no way do I consider myself stupid but this was fucking incredible..
I couldn't help feel like I was learning about everything and everything was starting to make more sense.. I have always been confident until lately. and I felt like I was looking at things differently.. I used to not worry, was satisfied with my life and knew I had everything I would need to get anything I wanted.. I felt that again. I appreciated everything I didn't lose and was hopeful for the first time in a couple years since I had a major setback financially... anyways I could go into more detail. I mean I already feel like I wrote it. it felt like the only thing I ever did really right.. i made it perfect. but not just perfect, i was imagining writing this at the same time and using parts of this. (this is not what i was imagining exactly, i just threw it down quick for a thread but really was writing a detailed description I planned to post. but while i was writing it i actually imagining what people on here would say and shit..
I tried my best to not it influence me but i had a weird kind of awareness of how others might interpret it.. i can definitely say my brain has never done that before.. I haven't read it yet but it didn't fix my ex girls problems, which is not how I felt but I did feel she would understand better than she has in 17 years.. that's what the fuck I was doing yesterday... what do you think? I've done a bunch of acid when I was in high school. smoke weed and cigarettes. mushrooms a couple times.. I also used Adderall about 2 years ago for a couple weeks.. no other drug use/experiments...
what I am wondering is this common or typical or am I just tripping? keep it real... also please don't try to say I am qualifying my addiction. if that's truly what you believe than I respect your opinion, but I did intend to stop and will unless this is "normal".. I believe I had taken about 60mg.. I guess I have one specific question... does this med take weeks to adjust to? I have just a little gut rot and am a little more picky eating. Sweating a lot. A little shaky sometimes.. no other side effects, fine in public or wherever.. not having any" rush" type feelings..hornier, but it feels like i got shrinkage, but fully functional. Maybe a little too functional..that's all I can add. Feel free to ask any relevant questions..
I also take some expensive whole food vitamins to compensate for any nutrients I may be needing??? sounded smart to me.. anyways I feel fine I guess. not high at all. but yesterday I had a really crazy experience. I was planning on finishing up but I had a crazy experience that made me think I might have add or something that I would benefit from..
so. I drove my daughters mother home from work. she was acting like her usually miserable self.. no problem.. get home, I am helping out a friends son by letting him stay in the basement. we break out some weed and my ex goes upstairs upset.. typical..I start to roll and am planning to send her a text to come down and smoke. it becomes an afterthought and me and make start smoking and watching TV.. I'm not noticeably high from the dex but this is the first joint in 2 days.. its nice weed we are impressed and happy to smoke and chill out..
I start to finish the msg to my ex and what was supposed to be a invite turned into 2 hours of me writing and crying. a lot .. I completely lost control.. my brain felt like it was a computer. it was too much sometimes. im not exaggerating. it was fucking crazy!! I embraced it the best I could... I could tell that my brain was working in a way it never did before.. i write most of this shit on my new phone and i started using it more efficiently in minutes.. told mak to do whatever he wanted except take the car, and give me a cigarette and please don't talk to me.. he could see I had been crying and got the idea.. it was hard to control.. as I was writing her I was actually writing this. my brain was making connections I've never experienced.. in no way do I consider myself stupid but this was fucking incredible..
I couldn't help feel like I was learning about everything and everything was starting to make more sense.. I have always been confident until lately. and I felt like I was looking at things differently.. I used to not worry, was satisfied with my life and knew I had everything I would need to get anything I wanted.. I felt that again. I appreciated everything I didn't lose and was hopeful for the first time in a couple years since I had a major setback financially... anyways I could go into more detail. I mean I already feel like I wrote it. it felt like the only thing I ever did really right.. i made it perfect. but not just perfect, i was imagining writing this at the same time and using parts of this. (this is not what i was imagining exactly, i just threw it down quick for a thread but really was writing a detailed description I planned to post. but while i was writing it i actually imagining what people on here would say and shit..
I tried my best to not it influence me but i had a weird kind of awareness of how others might interpret it.. i can definitely say my brain has never done that before.. I haven't read it yet but it didn't fix my ex girls problems, which is not how I felt but I did feel she would understand better than she has in 17 years.. that's what the fuck I was doing yesterday... what do you think? I've done a bunch of acid when I was in high school. smoke weed and cigarettes. mushrooms a couple times.. I also used Adderall about 2 years ago for a couple weeks.. no other drug use/experiments...
what I am wondering is this common or typical or am I just tripping? keep it real... also please don't try to say I am qualifying my addiction. if that's truly what you believe than I respect your opinion, but I did intend to stop and will unless this is "normal".. I believe I had taken about 60mg.. I guess I have one specific question... does this med take weeks to adjust to? I have just a little gut rot and am a little more picky eating. Sweating a lot. A little shaky sometimes.. no other side effects, fine in public or wherever.. not having any" rush" type feelings..hornier, but it feels like i got shrinkage, but fully functional. Maybe a little too functional..that's all I can add. Feel free to ask any relevant questions..
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