[BACKGROUND]
Doing amphetamines for hell knows..5 years i think?? Never ever had opportunity to hit pharm speed, but always doing street thing. From really adulterated where after a line you can feel baking soda/glucose/aspirin taste when you get drip, to quality bomb squidgy wet slightly grey different smell stuff or powdery chunky lightly pink with shades of white that holded my friend and me in a wonderland for two straight days tweaking out with euphoria and serious thinking about harm to animals while buying cigarettes(And i dont even care about that). Since my abuse only goes for a week at most i do breaks. While tweaking sometimes. While tweaking i change my regular dish to chainsmoking/gum/energy drinks/colas. Rarely take something food like. Pauses after abuse happens for weeks, sometimes for few days. Just cant manage my aggression/anger. I get pissed of at everything, so badly that few times i've got violent at my gf for almost nothing.. As time go by weeks i calm down by drinking every few days. I wonder if what i have is high tolerance. I could go thru a gram in hours sometimes Not that im not getting high, it's just im already tweaked out but have a big urge to redose, probably to feel something that is impossible to reach, or because i feel that after talking with someone or playing guitar for hour straight starts to get bit realistic and then i act like that naturally in order to maintain that same state where i feel like a happy man, but in reality i get wired not wanting to do things, with lots of thoughts passing, and one of them is to talk with my girlfriend as i did few hours and felt cumbuckets of happines, but when i open my mouth i feel that my fake reality wears off, and i become more and more sad with myself.
[WHAT WE THINK ABOUT THIS]
My girlfriend found another way of ingesting crank. Snorting was her thing for a quite small time because of nasty drip taste that she loved at first but started to hate later and because it burned so much where it left you with runny nose for 30 mins straight trying to pull it back. I suggested bombing in a rizzla and she loved everything about it. Discreetness of ingestion, no taste, longer high, and mellowed seemed to be STRONGER for her somehow and packet seemed to reach her way too fast, after 15mins shes rushing on her run while i think how its possible after only short time has passed.
Me - Myself done it orally and i can say im not a loved of weak high, but i do like longer ones. Snorting was my friend for years, it gave me some sort of rush at the times, but urge to redose kills me. I would love to see my nose from inside.. My guess it looks like i've been in hell and took a hardcore line.
Smoking is not an option. Few guys thought me how, by liking cigarette all the way and sticking hair thickness line on it and slowly dragging it. DIdn't do a jack. Same with chasing the dragon. I think all i chased was foil vapour and 0 of speed that instantly turned solid and black when fire was applied.
IV'ing always seemed to be worst thing. I have a needlephobia, and cant even think of injecting by myself.
Im already thinking of investment into 20ct syringe now. My girlfriend real opinion seems to express in her crooked smile. She thinks there's no need to do that when bombing or snorting is more accepted in her small drug knowledge and community of addicts that she googles from time to time on her cellphone while she's tweak at studies. Still, no one's stopping me from this, but no thumbs up either, but im willing to do this after i'll gather all the info i need.
[POCKETS FULL OF TOLERANCE AND SCRAPED AMMO]
Since im good at this abuse thing, i've got my hands on some good powder for cheap. Fluffy, but still a bit wet, so it forms into chunks or seems to look like a goey paste spreaded on a bag sticked onto it for ages. But chunks break off easily when touched with credit card and that paste when lays in the bag and just does not look like it would be a powder falls off from a baggie just fine. Bits of it still sticks, but hey tweakers tend to "lick" every bit with cutting the bag and scraping shit out of it. Now the stuff is a week old already and with what im left is about 3 grams at most, where glucose was added and it probably makes 4,5 now. It was added without my knowledge when i was at work and my girlfriend tryed to mask the drip taste, where she found herself doing a tragedy to me. It was like she stabbed my mom wit a knife. I've managed my anger by hitting a decent line before hearing the news, but now i know that what i got laying on my desk is very real and hardly a wiseman job. I Probably will scream my lungs on her later when we will run out of sweet amphetamine lines. Now i never knew if what have is high, but tolerance is sure a bitch that i would not fuck. It has been a quite long break ~2 weeks after taking this ammount. Started week ago, ate visually nothing, but its possible that my stomach felt it. Chainsmoked ~12 packs of cigarettes and i could be wrong so it could be more, done that while non stop gum chewing was going on and water or some fizzy drink was ingested because of my dry mouth and gum turning into a carpet. Slept for ~11 hours few days ago, but followed by Wake And Rail. Bed had me yesterday for about same ammount of time. This time wake and rail wasnt the thing i've wanted, and at the times my aggression creeped on me, but doing few serious lines and trying bombs again to avoid snorting when i felt bad about my nasal burn outs i felt fine again. Almost whole week trying to have sex but no luck waking up took some energy from me. Chasing that "Speedgasm" worked after after 3-4 days where we found ourselves trying just because we have nothing better to do. Failing at errection with many things like porn, mind blowing hours lasting blowjobs, etc just placed me in a position where i thought about my self as an impotent and shame, sadness came into package like it should. Dissapointment of 7hour fail everyday did its job by making multiple lines. So now im hanging here, almost 7 in the morning with no reasonable answer why im writing this, smelling like garbage, got nothing to do just wait when my state of high gonna fall, i'll have to accompany my gf to studies and come back home where i'll find myself dissapointed thinking "Why day has to come, and night ends so fast?", walking around house when got nothing better to do just wait for my girlfriend. "I'd like to buy a 20ml syringe, please".
[IS IT WOTH MY ASS?]
Im thinking of doing fairly big dose, because of that glucose and developed tolerance when tweaking whole night long again. I know this is harm reduction forum and i should not chase my high, but it would help me to chase this day happiness somewhere hidden where it should be in me and end up 1h at night watching something stupid, eating a sandwitch and falling asleep. Would plugging do any luck? I mean its almost same as IV in a way, but does the high much more stronger, better than nasally? I mean if you cant really get a rush from snorting, then how should rush feel like? Plenty of writing but no good answers about it, no one compared it just saying that its not worth your time or that it does not even work, and they had no amps in their systems for long time. Others told to trust them, because its better than enything they've had, and never felt that way. Words from people who takes pharm amphs as prescribed, building their tolerance for long time. Going to take all the actions i'll need. Even got baking soda by my side so increase effects. Will some sort of luck is thinking about a visit today? Or with a built tolerance and sleepless night it wont do any better than snorting it? If it would, please, please, suggest me a right dose for amph and water ratio. Every bit that was taken wrong is a teardrop to me now when i have to live thru this day and would kill for ingestion method that is as much good as IV'ing and would not kill my nose then take on my shallow and "out of air" breaths, followed my coughing that went so bad i lost my voice. Throat does not even hurt but my voice is like being hospitalized because of serious flu and it only stops for a sentence(If i cough my balls out in front of everyone looking like i've lived outside for ages, ate bread crumbs for pigeons, and showered in cold lake where i've got even dirtyed and got myself a deadly dissease but managed to steal some clothes from a thrift shop to look decent enough for society). Its just a bless for me if its a success.
[FOR BLUELIGHT]
I appologize for my terrible english writing, that took alot to be posted with no real reason for ya'll to read but only for me to explain society that understands me how desperate i feel and ironically i see myself(all the time), not because abuse does this when withdrawls hit you with depression, but because of my nature. This is who i am and i understand, so i wish that at least a few guys would read it or even answer to my prayers, and not explain me how inappropriate i act in life, in here or just laugh his ass off. If any chance that you think im still tweaking - Im not, and i wish i would, but on other hand you guys wont - it would be a long book sized mess.
THANK YOU ALL
Doing amphetamines for hell knows..5 years i think?? Never ever had opportunity to hit pharm speed, but always doing street thing. From really adulterated where after a line you can feel baking soda/glucose/aspirin taste when you get drip, to quality bomb squidgy wet slightly grey different smell stuff or powdery chunky lightly pink with shades of white that holded my friend and me in a wonderland for two straight days tweaking out with euphoria and serious thinking about harm to animals while buying cigarettes(And i dont even care about that). Since my abuse only goes for a week at most i do breaks. While tweaking sometimes. While tweaking i change my regular dish to chainsmoking/gum/energy drinks/colas. Rarely take something food like. Pauses after abuse happens for weeks, sometimes for few days. Just cant manage my aggression/anger. I get pissed of at everything, so badly that few times i've got violent at my gf for almost nothing.. As time go by weeks i calm down by drinking every few days. I wonder if what i have is high tolerance. I could go thru a gram in hours sometimes Not that im not getting high, it's just im already tweaked out but have a big urge to redose, probably to feel something that is impossible to reach, or because i feel that after talking with someone or playing guitar for hour straight starts to get bit realistic and then i act like that naturally in order to maintain that same state where i feel like a happy man, but in reality i get wired not wanting to do things, with lots of thoughts passing, and one of them is to talk with my girlfriend as i did few hours and felt cumbuckets of happines, but when i open my mouth i feel that my fake reality wears off, and i become more and more sad with myself.
[WHAT WE THINK ABOUT THIS]
My girlfriend found another way of ingesting crank. Snorting was her thing for a quite small time because of nasty drip taste that she loved at first but started to hate later and because it burned so much where it left you with runny nose for 30 mins straight trying to pull it back. I suggested bombing in a rizzla and she loved everything about it. Discreetness of ingestion, no taste, longer high, and mellowed seemed to be STRONGER for her somehow and packet seemed to reach her way too fast, after 15mins shes rushing on her run while i think how its possible after only short time has passed.
Me - Myself done it orally and i can say im not a loved of weak high, but i do like longer ones. Snorting was my friend for years, it gave me some sort of rush at the times, but urge to redose kills me. I would love to see my nose from inside.. My guess it looks like i've been in hell and took a hardcore line.
Smoking is not an option. Few guys thought me how, by liking cigarette all the way and sticking hair thickness line on it and slowly dragging it. DIdn't do a jack. Same with chasing the dragon. I think all i chased was foil vapour and 0 of speed that instantly turned solid and black when fire was applied.
IV'ing always seemed to be worst thing. I have a needlephobia, and cant even think of injecting by myself.
Im already thinking of investment into 20ct syringe now. My girlfriend real opinion seems to express in her crooked smile. She thinks there's no need to do that when bombing or snorting is more accepted in her small drug knowledge and community of addicts that she googles from time to time on her cellphone while she's tweak at studies. Still, no one's stopping me from this, but no thumbs up either, but im willing to do this after i'll gather all the info i need.
[POCKETS FULL OF TOLERANCE AND SCRAPED AMMO]
Since im good at this abuse thing, i've got my hands on some good powder for cheap. Fluffy, but still a bit wet, so it forms into chunks or seems to look like a goey paste spreaded on a bag sticked onto it for ages. But chunks break off easily when touched with credit card and that paste when lays in the bag and just does not look like it would be a powder falls off from a baggie just fine. Bits of it still sticks, but hey tweakers tend to "lick" every bit with cutting the bag and scraping shit out of it. Now the stuff is a week old already and with what im left is about 3 grams at most, where glucose was added and it probably makes 4,5 now. It was added without my knowledge when i was at work and my girlfriend tryed to mask the drip taste, where she found herself doing a tragedy to me. It was like she stabbed my mom wit a knife. I've managed my anger by hitting a decent line before hearing the news, but now i know that what i got laying on my desk is very real and hardly a wiseman job. I Probably will scream my lungs on her later when we will run out of sweet amphetamine lines. Now i never knew if what have is high, but tolerance is sure a bitch that i would not fuck. It has been a quite long break ~2 weeks after taking this ammount. Started week ago, ate visually nothing, but its possible that my stomach felt it. Chainsmoked ~12 packs of cigarettes and i could be wrong so it could be more, done that while non stop gum chewing was going on and water or some fizzy drink was ingested because of my dry mouth and gum turning into a carpet. Slept for ~11 hours few days ago, but followed by Wake And Rail. Bed had me yesterday for about same ammount of time. This time wake and rail wasnt the thing i've wanted, and at the times my aggression creeped on me, but doing few serious lines and trying bombs again to avoid snorting when i felt bad about my nasal burn outs i felt fine again. Almost whole week trying to have sex but no luck waking up took some energy from me. Chasing that "Speedgasm" worked after after 3-4 days where we found ourselves trying just because we have nothing better to do. Failing at errection with many things like porn, mind blowing hours lasting blowjobs, etc just placed me in a position where i thought about my self as an impotent and shame, sadness came into package like it should. Dissapointment of 7hour fail everyday did its job by making multiple lines. So now im hanging here, almost 7 in the morning with no reasonable answer why im writing this, smelling like garbage, got nothing to do just wait when my state of high gonna fall, i'll have to accompany my gf to studies and come back home where i'll find myself dissapointed thinking "Why day has to come, and night ends so fast?", walking around house when got nothing better to do just wait for my girlfriend. "I'd like to buy a 20ml syringe, please".
[IS IT WOTH MY ASS?]
Im thinking of doing fairly big dose, because of that glucose and developed tolerance when tweaking whole night long again. I know this is harm reduction forum and i should not chase my high, but it would help me to chase this day happiness somewhere hidden where it should be in me and end up 1h at night watching something stupid, eating a sandwitch and falling asleep. Would plugging do any luck? I mean its almost same as IV in a way, but does the high much more stronger, better than nasally? I mean if you cant really get a rush from snorting, then how should rush feel like? Plenty of writing but no good answers about it, no one compared it just saying that its not worth your time or that it does not even work, and they had no amps in their systems for long time. Others told to trust them, because its better than enything they've had, and never felt that way. Words from people who takes pharm amphs as prescribed, building their tolerance for long time. Going to take all the actions i'll need. Even got baking soda by my side so increase effects. Will some sort of luck is thinking about a visit today? Or with a built tolerance and sleepless night it wont do any better than snorting it? If it would, please, please, suggest me a right dose for amph and water ratio. Every bit that was taken wrong is a teardrop to me now when i have to live thru this day and would kill for ingestion method that is as much good as IV'ing and would not kill my nose then take on my shallow and "out of air" breaths, followed my coughing that went so bad i lost my voice. Throat does not even hurt but my voice is like being hospitalized because of serious flu and it only stops for a sentence(If i cough my balls out in front of everyone looking like i've lived outside for ages, ate bread crumbs for pigeons, and showered in cold lake where i've got even dirtyed and got myself a deadly dissease but managed to steal some clothes from a thrift shop to look decent enough for society). Its just a bless for me if its a success.
[FOR BLUELIGHT]
I appologize for my terrible english writing, that took alot to be posted with no real reason for ya'll to read but only for me to explain society that understands me how desperate i feel and ironically i see myself(all the time), not because abuse does this when withdrawls hit you with depression, but because of my nature. This is who i am and i understand, so i wish that at least a few guys would read it or even answer to my prayers, and not explain me how inappropriate i act in life, in here or just laugh his ass off. If any chance that you think im still tweaking - Im not, and i wish i would, but on other hand you guys wont - it would be a long book sized mess.
THANK YOU ALL
