so, what have a i learnt this month? it's quite hard to describe because essentially i don't feel any different really. i know consciously it is a good thing that i haven't watched porn. right now, honestly, i'm probably going to watch a little porn and from now on only watch it selectively. i definitely feel that i have reversed the affect of binge watching. essentially that is the killer. too much is damaging and just like anything in life moderation is key.
i feel i have balanced myself out and i feel pretty normal right now. i guess because i don't feel anything profound from this experiment that i am a bit disappointed because i expected to be a sex god or something like that. like stopping the porn would make me a better person at picking up women.
tbh, nothing has happened and rightly so. society isn't going to stop what it's doing and praise me for what i'm doing, in fact, you get more of a response from people when you tell them you don't watch porn instead of telling them you do. so maybe that is something to think about.
porn is such a big part in peoples lives that they are shocked when you tell them you don't watch it. that's saying something, right? mostly people would say "so, how do you wank?" which i replied "just learning to use my imagination". the usual response to that would be "oh man, that would take way too long". correct, it does take longer and i find some nights I'm like oh i could wank but im tired and such a thing does take around half an hour now instead of 2 minutes.
the thing is that i don't jump to porn anymore when i feel horny. I rarely feel horny. when i am horny i have one and it may take half the time but i find it takes a lot more to make me horny now than it did. it takes something that means more to make me horny than a video. i guess, in a sense, ive gone backwards in some sense. but in fact, wanking just isn't a big thing anymore.
i dont feel like ive lost anything from it either. but i dont feel like ive gained much at the same time
. the main question to ask is what's the point? well, for one, erm, maybe it's because you are just wanking too much. you actually don't need to do it that much. but cutting down definitely calms you the fuck down.
so stop porn every once in a while. take a rest. stop that thought process just for a little bit. because the world won't end when you cut out porn, it will just be surprised that you aren't doing it as much as they are.
