hey there, I'll try to keep this as short as possible. about a year ago I stopped all of my drug use. i was on cocaine as much as possible, used meth a few times, and was constantly smoking weed. my main desire is cocaine. and I have a desire for heroin. I am young, pretty young, and stupid. anyway, after doing all I did for a while, it seems impossible to completely escape the lifestyle. I have completely changed everything I do but my mind. I want cocaine. I want late nights alone looking at the stars wondering where the fuck i am and what's going to happen next.
it has had such a lasting effect on me, that I'm really depressed and have been for a few months. I even theoretically plan in my head when I'll use cocaine and heroin later in life. and then I just make myself stop.
what the hell can i do ? im lost.
it has had such a lasting effect on me, that I'm really depressed and have been for a few months. I even theoretically plan in my head when I'll use cocaine and heroin later in life. and then I just make myself stop.
what the hell can i do ? im lost.