Stopped Drug Use, but temptations and depression

matisayu

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hey there, I'll try to keep this as short as possible. about a year ago I stopped all of my drug use. i was on cocaine as much as possible, used meth a few times, and was constantly smoking weed. my main desire is cocaine. and I have a desire for heroin. I am young, pretty young, and stupid. anyway, after doing all I did for a while, it seems impossible to completely escape the lifestyle. I have completely changed everything I do but my mind. I want cocaine. I want late nights alone looking at the stars wondering where the fuck i am and what's going to happen next.

it has had such a lasting effect on me, that I'm really depressed and have been for a few months. I even theoretically plan in my head when I'll use cocaine and heroin later in life. and then I just make myself stop.

what the hell can i do ? im lost.
 
I know the feeling trust me.
Just remember, this stuff ruins you.
You will destroy you and everything you love.
I am fighting with addiction and it's hell on earth.
If you're depressed, try an anti-depressant for a while until you get your mind back to normal.
There might be some bigger issues.
Much love.
 
its gonna happen...

what can u do? well. not act on the feelings, you dont have to use everytime youre craving a drug.

ive been a user for over ten years now. ive gotten sober on and off. i was a year clean, then relapsed. this time im 4 months clean from heroin & meth. i still get killer cravings, dreams, some days i want to use sooooo bad it hurts, but i just wait for the feeling to pass. cause it will.

dont isolate. get some sober friends who u can talk to and chill with when things get rough. you cant do this alone...

good luck. and u can always talk to me. message me or whatever. :]
 
The cravings will pass in time. Keep busy, exercise and get proper nutrition. Read lots of books, learn an instrumnent, whatever. Find something productive to fill that void with and try to find things that you get some enjoyment out of in the meantime. The anhedonia will pass. Patience is absolutely essential in conquering this affliction, just remember that it will pass but not to remain idle and wallow in self pity or procrastination. There is a whole world out there and so much to experience.
 
Keep up the sobriety. I wish I was clean. The depression hits me hard as well. If I take suboxone im depressed. Its a rough life addicted to drugs. I cry when i look at what I've done
 
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