Stop this Pain

[frostyangel]

I could feel like not caring
and I could do what you
have done.
But, I would never leave you
standing there, wondering
what you have done.
Remember me, I am the
one, the one who didn't
choose what you have
done.
Did you ever stop to
think, all the problems
you would cause, because
of what you done.
I hated to even remember,
for they ask why? I won't be
ever normal from what you've
done.
Weren't my tears and all those
bruises enough to make you stop
what you have done.
But it was all you were consuming
to let you remember all that you
have done.
Well, I'm done.
Remembering how you created
all this pain, remembering the
screams that have left me, for you
to just stop.
You called me the crazy one,
making me believe that what
you have done, was okay to say.
And I hurt like no other cause
you believe what you done,
shouldn't have left us the way
we are today, and you always
ask me to stay.
But you never will admit, not
even to yourself, and for that
I will never forget. So I'll never
forgive. And here I'll live alone
without your love, for it is not
worth any of my time.
And I thought that I would be
okay, without you. And I thought
that discovering my life by myself,
for myself....would be so much better,
I feared this day of loneliness could
come..and I want to be strong knowing
that when I come home to this empty
laughter..
I started to see where I had stood in
this life...couldn't find my way back
from the doors of hell...that enclosed
all the hurtful words that repeat day
after day, of the way you played with
my emotions, that laid in between the
lines of happiness....
And the tears that just won't fall anymore,
became so painful, within these eyes,
and my heart became so empty, that
I thought that I would never survive,
with the attention of knowing were I stand,
with your imaginary feelings I pretended
you had for me...
Why couldn't you just let go, let go,
of knowing how I would drop to my knees
at the sound of you voice..which you commanded
me to love....
And I thought just maybe, if I were
to get away, get away from it all,
it would be okay. But no matter
the distance traveled, my mind
never goes away... I thought that
if I sat here eating these little pills
that all the pounds of hating
myself would just melt away....

 

[rm-rf]

...and this is why, you are so beautiful.
It seems like life is so wonderful, and then you wake up, grow up, and see, that your childhood dreams were a lie. But it doesnt have to be that way, it takes work, more than I may be able to output for myself, but its possible, to bring that childish sheltering back.
mad luv xo

Why couldn't you just let go, let go,
of knowing how I would drop to my knees
at the sound of you voice..which you commanded
me to love...
Then why? Why obey? your young, your life has endless tales yet to tell, why conclude with this? Its not the end...

 

[E-girl]

And the tears that just won't fall anymore,
became so painful, within these eyes,
and my heart became so empty, that
I thought that I would never survive,
with the attention of knowing were I stand,
with your imaginary feelings I pretended
you had for me...
what i see, living with you, and what you write here, are always so different. and your words make me so sad sometimes...
but i know, just like you always tell me, that we will get through it... your heart will not always be empty. you WILL find the perfect person to fill that void. and he will sweep you off your feet... and i will be there to kodak the moment
until then.... *hug*