stop it

[mashead testing]

Cant turn it on
and it wont switch off
nothing so heart breaking
as the mistakes others are making
Who I am to judge?
a citizen of the world
a human, but left disgusted
nothing feels good about being male
Nothing feels good about being someone
in a world where people dont belong
I think its just another day
and try and start again
But you're still here
you're still sick
and no I am not judging you
that would be wrong
Nowhere near as wrong as you though
you dont just hurt them
you hurt me, you break my heart
who the fuck are you to do this
How can you gain such a status
a label that is of the worst
something that not just hurts
but even more
Tearing me apart, making me hurt
you're still there
you're still there
and like my heart beat it wont go
I can make that go
I dont think I could though
I cant make you go
even though I want to so bad
I have control on my pulse
I dont have control on my thoughts
you tore them apart
without even a pause
I feel dirty,
used to love playing in the mud,
used to love being in love
but now its changed
I dont want these feelings
I dont want you living
living in my soul
stuck on repeat
I could listen to these sounds on repeat
but ones that I choose
the ones that make me feel something new,
everytime
But you make me feel the same,
with you my hurt never changes
it never ends
like its just begun again
And still as I close my eyes at night
you appear, you appear, you appear
for somehow one quick reminder
and you are here
Nothing can hurt so much
deny myself touch
because it hurts
its not meant to, I know
You make it hard for me to press on
you make it easy for me to press off
you make it hard to make myself feel good
and I want it all to stop.
[ 18 September 2002: Message edited by: masheadatronic ]

 

[Furnace]

awesome.