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"Stimulated" pre-frontal neurotoxicity?

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This might be aa strange way of thinking about it, but i'd like you guys opinions on this. Do you think taht during a trip, if one regein of your brain is over stimulated it could possibly reciveve more damage due to the "excitoactivity" or more chemicals transmitting signals in a particular area? As an example, experienceing a breakup on MDMA upon where YOU cheated or something, resulting in you freaking out, panic attacks on MDMA ect, while thinking about the OTHER persons position and how it affected them (seeing from anothers perspective- frontal love activity- ) and how much you hurt them kind of thing, resulting in major regret or over stimulation of a particular area?
 
I think that difficult experiences during a roll can make it more likely to have unpleasant lasting effects like depression or anxiety. I would not attribute this to more neurotoxicity but rather because of being in an increased empathogenic state which may make the experience more disturbing than it otherwise would have been. Increased empathy is not necessarily "enjoyable" when dealing with heavy emotional situations.
 
Okay dude literally you are telling my LIFE in this thread. I have always had the exact same question as you. So this one night last summer I was rolling with a friend in my bedroom at 4:00am. I live in kind of a sketchy area and all of a sudden i heard multiple gun shots next to my house. When the gun shots fired, I was smoking weed on my balcony with a light on. I instantly went inside but by the time I opened the door to go back to my room I started noticing a flashing light blinking at me coming from one of my neighbors. I live in the middle of nowhere with only 2 or 3 neighbors so that contributed to the fear. I thought the murderers caught me! But later on I found out that flashing lights are just a sign of caution and to go into your house. Anyways during the roll I starting having an extreme panic attack I was out of control I got a bat and hid in my basement with my friend. The past 3 months after that I was burnt. I had horrible insomnia and would hallucinate everytime I woke up. I could barely connect with anyone. I lost all the charm I once had with girls. I became psychotic. I constantly thought about suicide and killing other people. I neglected how i dressed and everything. Then 3 months after that I decided to give rolling one more try. It was quite a mild roll but i still had a good roll and i was in a good setting and ever since then I still feel burnt but not half as burnt as i felt before. I think they should do a study on this.
 
So your saying that after you rolled again it kind of reseted you? Thats weird because i'v atually been thinking about this to see if i'd change my perspective of things.. At first when i started rolling it made me SOOO happy and social, i dont mean while rolling, i mean days after, It changed me for the best, then I just started over doing it then I started getting fucked.. I was pretty good before my last roll, but after that I went psychotic, ended up in a mental ward for 3 days and ive been retarded ever since, had to drop out of school etc.. Think rolling again would be worth a try?
 
It definitely reset me. I've had rolls where months later I have flashbacks and then rolls where I never have a flashback after. I had the same thing, I became dyslexic and failed all my classes. After the last good roll I had everything is starting to get back to normal now. So idk, I say give it one more try. I also noticed how the U.S is now using E for military veterans with PTSD. Supposively they give em e and actually re-enact the traumatic event and there has been like an 80% success rate look it up sometime.
 
It's impossible to predict with certainty how you would react. Given your last roll, there is of course the risk that you would have another difficult experience that would make you feel even worse.

If you do decide to do it, it is probably safest to do it with a close friend that understands your intention and will allow you to talk about whatever issues arise. Doing it alone has a lot of therapeutic potential but it may be risky if your last roll led to a psychotic episode.
 
I think that MDMA "opens you up" and makes you vulnerable in a way that's usually good but can go either way depending on your environment. If you were to be rolling 24/7, the empathy would augment your desire to help others, and their happiness would make you happier. But it's a double edged sword, if something bad happens to someone else (or you), you feel 10x worse than you do sober, which is bad in the long run because you need that empathy "resistance".
 
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