feellikeanutter
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jun 17, 2015
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Hi
Feeling like I'm going nuts as I still have feelings of connection/lust/love etc six weeks after taking X with a guy. I knew of the guy but first time having proper conversation with him or be one on one.
A group of us were away for a festival weekend and on the first night it ended up being the two of us taking X together. I enjoyed it, we had good conversation and opened up to each other and I feel we made a connection. It got quite intense, we ended up kissing and he wanted it to go further and so did I but I stopped myself as we were both in relationships and it just seemed surreal as we wouldn't have looked at each other before so I thought it was just fake. My relationship has since ended, not because of the guy I rolled with, but because it was already broken but it was just for one of us to say/accept it and the whole experience with the X made me look at things differently and didn't want to live a lie anymore.
Don't get me wrong, I know I can't be with this guy I rolled with and I don't want to have feelings for him, but I still have them and it is annoying as I doubt he feels the same. I really enjoyed the evening we spent together and took a lot out of the experience. I don't usually do X/MDMA. Has anyone else felt this before?
Feeling like I'm going nuts as I still have feelings of connection/lust/love etc six weeks after taking X with a guy. I knew of the guy but first time having proper conversation with him or be one on one.
A group of us were away for a festival weekend and on the first night it ended up being the two of us taking X together. I enjoyed it, we had good conversation and opened up to each other and I feel we made a connection. It got quite intense, we ended up kissing and he wanted it to go further and so did I but I stopped myself as we were both in relationships and it just seemed surreal as we wouldn't have looked at each other before so I thought it was just fake. My relationship has since ended, not because of the guy I rolled with, but because it was already broken but it was just for one of us to say/accept it and the whole experience with the X made me look at things differently and didn't want to live a lie anymore.
Don't get me wrong, I know I can't be with this guy I rolled with and I don't want to have feelings for him, but I still have them and it is annoying as I doubt he feels the same. I really enjoyed the evening we spent together and took a lot out of the experience. I don't usually do X/MDMA. Has anyone else felt this before?