Still Alive here

Still alive and kicking here.

Been busy and all.

Life is going well.

Gained a good chunk of weight, up to 143Lbs.

Weather is fantastic here.

Finally got re examined by a psyche and got a diagnosis. Bipolar Depression and Anxiety but I think I might also have Borderline Personality Disorder and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Will have to wait and talk about that with doc next time. He put me on Quetiapine Fumarate (Seroquel) 25mg/ once a night.
Its been alright but not the best, i think i need a topper rx, probably something to mellow me out but not make me a zombie, probably twice a day.

Besides prescription meds I have been pretty good, I slipped up twice and got all fucked up but besides that I am doing good and haven't gotten buzzed in months. Working back to the 1yr mark.

I have still been single throughout all this, jackass won't seek help for his issues and I'm not his mommy so fuck him.

I met this wonderful woman that I plan on meeting and probably having sexers with, and a relationship with. Hoping it lasts but not holding onto anything just taking it one step at a time. She's cute and nice and pervvy like me haha.

well, will update again when can.

I'm on Facebook and MSN.

 

Self diagnosis is sketchy, and BDD is a very popular self-diagnosis right now. Are you seeing an actual psychologist, or just a psychiatrist? Just sayin' is all

Also: good to see you! It's been a while-- seems like things are going well!

 

Seeing a Psychiatrist who specialist in mood disorders and is certified in Canada and the USA. He's also top notch for mental illnesses in general. I don't hate him but I don't overly like him. His student in training is much more personable. He's a nice guy and all, he WILL sit and listen but I don't have that comfortable feeling like I did with his student....that or it felt off because I was sitting in a mental institution of my own will - not committed just his office is in it.

I was previously diagnosed by a GP for Depression and Anxiety and the meds I got for that messed me up HUGELY. Didn't help that I was doing mdpv with rangrz at that time as well, which probably made things worse.

I was diagnosed this time with something that is more fitting, but I am not sure if something else is lingering, I know it takes 6 weeks or so for the meds to take effect fully and I will feel off for a little while but I still have some of the agitation, which probably doesn't help that I am drinking caffeine still, maybe if I ween off caffeine it might help with the agitation, oh and going to bed at 9pm instead of 11-12pm might help a little too.
My coverage only covers Psychiatrists not Psychologists (or private practice psyche's), only can go to docs who are covered by OHIP cause im broke ass with no job lol
I fucking hate seroquel, for right now anyhow. My brain feels fogged and I feel like a moron. I will be talking to my pdoc tomorrow and see what she thinks about it all.

Yeah things are going much much better. I had a chance to drink 3 days ago and I said no. So still on the sober train 17mos. I am only having issues with agitation everything else is awesome. I am loving my new house (well, been here almost a year). Now gotta just figure what to do with my hot new thang. lol.

How you doing Dave?