Sticky Fingers

[CoastTwoCoast]

Why do I feel the need to grab a drug I want that someone has? I didn't realise the psychological need and craving is this overwhelming. If I see something in a bottle I want, I go for it! I take what I want and that's that. It impulsively comes over me and I can't stop myself! I just took 10 mg of Norco from a family member when they weren't around. I want to take it with clonazolam I have. I'm not recommending mixing opiates and benzos to anyone. It can kill if you take too much or have no tolerance. My tolerance is ridiculous. I used to steal my ex b/f's mothers drugs too. How did I become this person? Do you have sticky fingers too?

 

[Papaverium]

I've definitely had my share of urges and impulses. I try my hardest to not give in to those cravings because I attempt to keep a moral code of not stealing from people. It's really difficult when the voice in your head is screaming louder than all your other thoughts and you act before you think of the consequences.
A couple days ago, one of my Dilaudid dealers left both their bottles on the table while they went into the other room for a moment and I almost puked from the extreme urge to take a bottle and run, or at least go into the bottle and take a handful as fast as I could, but I didn't do it because I knew that wouldn't end well. There definitely have been times though where I acted before thinking and wished I thought twice before doing so.

 

[Moreaux]

I have had the urge in the past with my weed dealer. I've never had a lot of sources for weed, and it was always inconvenient to get, so when I would visit my dealer it was difficult to maintain because the guy was blind, and always had pounds of the stuff lying around. It was so tempting, but he was on disability and this was how he supported himself, and I could never bring myself to rip him off. Drugs aside, I'm a fairly honest person and have a conscience that is unrelenting, couple that with OCD, I just don't have it in me.

In your situation is it more of an adrenaline response? I've had friends hat get huge dopamine releases from taking stuff. I could see how scoring free drugs on the sly would be an even better dopamine release, with the added bonus of substance lol.

This may be an instance where you have to practice mindfulness, and make a conscious effort to not steal drugs if the opportunity presents itself. You could make a game of it, testing your self control.

ETA - if you want to curb this behavior you have to find what is motivating you to do this. Once you find what is motivating you, you can take action to stop.

 

[Tinker55]

I hate even bringing this up but if you have a habit or hang around with people who do, things go missing. Medicine, money, jewelry and low weight/ high value items. I am not dissing the OP or anyone else but addiction has certain consequences. Sticky fingers can be one of them.

 

[Moreaux]

I hate even bringing this up but if you have a habit or hang around with people who do, things go missing. Medicine, money, jewelry and low weight/ high value items. I am not dissing the OP or anyone else but addiction has certain consequences. Sticky fingers can be one of them.

Very true, but the way the OP spoke about it, and is concerned enough to open a thread makes it sound like a compulsion beyond stealing to support an addiction. Of course, I'm just speculating.

 

[CoastTwoCoast]

Yes, it's a compulsion to steal medicine that would get me high. I've never stolen money, jewelry or valued items. I guess there's an adrenaline rush. The rush of hurrying to get the medicine before the person catches me. It's stupid. It didnt always be this way, but the more I got into drugs, the more I felt like I had to steal fhem to get high.

 

[CoastTwoCoast]

A couple days ago, one of my Dilaudid dealers left both their bottles on the table while they went into the other room for a moment and I almost puked from the extreme urge to take a bottle and run, or at least go into the bottle and take a handful as fast as I could, but I didn't do it because I knew that wouldn't end well. There definitely have been times though where I acted before thinking and wished I thought twice before doing so.

That must have been so tempting, but thank God you didn't steal from dealers. That's a different level than stealing from regular people. I've never had dealers, but I imagine they would fuck you up for stealing their drugs. Not a good idea. Good job you didn't do that.

 

[neversickanymore]

"regular" people will fuck you up just as quick. Thievery is wrong and pretty despicable. I would just look and see if being a thief agrees with you on a deep level. If it does not then I would just decide that you are not a thief and never steal no matter what. That is there is no reason your mind can ever give you to steal.

 

[Moreaux]

Yes, it's a compulsion to steal medicine that would get me high. I've never stolen money, jewelry or valued items. I guess there's an adrenaline rush. The rush of hurrying to get the medicine before the person catches me. It's stupid. It didnt always be this way, but the more I got into drugs, the more I felt like I had to steal fhem to get high.

If it's a compulsion I would read up on cognitive behavioral therapy techniques to work on getting better control of it. CBT works pretty well to tame my OCD.

 

[nuttynutskin]

I have had the urge in the past with my weed dealer. I've never had a lot of sources for weed, and it was always inconvenient to get, so when I would visit my dealer it was difficult to maintain because the guy was blind, and always had pounds of the stuff lying around.

Damn... A blind drug dealer? That doesn't exactly sound like a good mix.

 

[Ruby Slippers]

I think it unfortunately comes with the territory. I have never taken any personal belongings from friends but l know many, many people who have and l have had people who l assumed l could trust steal both money and/or drugs from me more times than l can count. This is also kind of embarrassing to admit but there was a small time frame when l was getting sober from opiates that l started occasionally taking things from retailers. I was always way, way to scared to stick anything in my purse/pockets but l would just set maybe like a tube of lip gloss under my purse and purposely not pay for it. Lame, l know. I still don't understand what motivated that haha but l was always on benzos during that time so maybe they gave me a sense of bravado or something. Additionally almost every pill addict l have known would rifle through med cabinets. If l knew the person needed or was dependent on their medication l wouldn't even consider it, but if it was an old dusty bottle??? One time l was at a funeral at a Country Club and you know how they have combined bathrooms/dressing rooms? Well there was a bag under the sink wide open with a bottle of Norcos sitting right there....and l just couldn't help myself. I felt super guilty

 

[CoastTwoCoast]

A bag with a bottle of Norcos wide open under the sink? I understand your guilt and why you did it, but the person who put it there wasn't very smart. It was open to the public. Forgive yourself. I just wish I had a dealer, besides RC vendors.

 

[weekend addiction]

Why do I feel the need to grab a drug I want that someone has? I didn't realise the psychological need and craving is this overwhelming. If I see something in a bottle I want, I go for it! I take what I want and that's that. It impulsively comes over me and I can't stop myself! I just took 10 mg of Norco from a family member when they weren't around. I want to take it with clonazolam I have. I'm not recommending mixing opiates and benzos to anyone. It can kill if you take too much or have no tolerance. My tolerance is ridiculous. I used to steal my ex b/f's mothers drugs too. How did I become this person? Do you have sticky fingers too?

Have you ever been stolen from? I had a roommate kick in my door rummage through my room and steal some whiskey, beer, and two bowls along with an xbox controller (fucker didn't even have an xbox I'm sure he traded it for a rock). You know how it feels to know someone went among your belonging and just took what they wanted? And knowing that they may have taken other things that your not aware about? Pretty shitty.

Think about the other person. Stealing is selfish.

A bag with a bottle of Norcos wide open under the sink? I understand your guilt and why you did it, but the person who put it there wasn't very smart. It was open to the public. Forgive yourself. I just wish I had a dealer, besides RC vendors.

Just because you find it doesn't make it yours bro. And you don't need a dealer. You could get just as high off some kratom\kratom extract as a couple vicoden and you wouldn't have to steal man.

 

[CoastTwoCoast]

Your roommate stole quite a lot. I've only taken a couple pills here and there, not justifying it, but I don't just go crazy and take everything.
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And my tolerance is high from other things so kratom pretty much does jack shit for me now.

 

[CoastTwoCoast]

Anyway, I'm just being honest in this thread. Not trying to say anything I did was right, but people want to act like saints. Trust me if you were a saint, you wouldn't fucking be anywhere near this site.

 

[weekend addiction]

Your roommate stole quite a lot. I've only taken a couple pills here and there, not justifying it, but I don't just go crazy and take everything.
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And my tolerance is high from other things so kratom pretty much does jack shit for me now.

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EDIT: Its cool I'm not trying to judge you man just trying to help you work past this issue by realizing the consequences bro. I'm no angel either I have stolen from stores\school\many other things I probably can't remember.

 

[neversickanymore]

just because you find it doesn't make it yours bro.

qft..

 

[CoastTwoCoast]

I was using the word to refer to an ignorant person which this guy definitely was.Calling me ignorant? Anyone who assumes someone is rascist for using a word is pretty ignorant if you ask me. I'm in the south and we commonly use the word but not to refer to just any old black person its for an ignorant black person kinda like how "white trash" doesn't refer to the entire white population.

EDIT: Its cool I'm not trying to judge you man just trying to help you work past this issue by realizing the consequences bro. I'm no angel either I have stolen from stores\school\many other things I probably can't remember.

Saying the N word is racist period. You just have to realize that. It's horribly offensive maybe you're just too used to using it, but it's unacceptable. You should know better. Walk up to a group of black guys and call them the N word. I'd love to see what happens.

Usually I get my drugs from RC vendors, but I will work on being more strong enough to stop myself when I want to take someone's pill.

 

[Moreaux]

Wow, this went sour all of a sudden. I think we all know that stealing is wrong, and I don't think we should be judging each other as it seems counterproductive to the nature of this site. Since then s is a drug site, I'm sure most of us have done things we're not proud of.

 

[Ruby Slippers]

^Straight up. Drugs obviously make many of us do things we wouldn't ordinarily consider. The OP was asking about the compulsion to steal that comes with addiction. Of course stealing is wrong, l don't think anyone was saying it was cool. But yes when you are addicted to pills and you see a bottle laying around it's almost like you can't help yourself. Whereas l would never, never steal money, electronics or other items of value. Like xbenzogirl said, we have all done things we are not proud of.