yeahh it basically is toxic...
But IDK theres just something that keeps pulling me back to him, like its so hard to leave him and i dont know why.
I feel like maybe school might help our relationship? for the last 11 months we've spent basically every day together. and if hes not working, were together.
but now we both have college. his schedule is from 2-8pm and mine is from 6-9. so its like more time a part...IDK i just keep hoping that things will get better.
BUT, since I have started college now, I am keeping myself open to guys and just people in general, not to say im actively looking for a new relationship, but if something were to come along that I feel would be better for me and such, I just might take it..who knows..
And now, my friend Chelsea has moved in to my house with me and my son and my mother, and Chelsea and my boyfriend HATE each other. so hes always complaining and talking badly about her, and its highly irritating. He tries to say that, shes going to tear us apart, but I try to explain to him that his immature actions are whats going to push me away, and he still jsut blames it all on her...
I guess I'm just going to try and see how it plays out, that is, if I can deal with the circumstances for much longer...